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Rasa ingin kembali menulis

2010-10-01T05:58:00.000-07:00

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah
lagi Maha Mengasihani.
Da sekian lama blog ni tak di update dan rasanya da takde pengunjung jugak. Mungkin akibat dihimpit kesibukan dan kemalasan diri, dan trend facebook menyebabkan blog ini ditinggalkan. Banyak yg telah berubah sejak kali terakhir blog ni dibuka. Tuan empunya blog kini telah pulang ke tanahair meninggalkan bumi Britain for good. Reason? no real valid reason, mungkin nk bertukar angin, unsure akan masa depan kehidupan di negara orang, parents mungkin mempengaruhi, da bosan ngan winter yg sejuk...and the list goes on.

Da hampir 2 bulan sy pulang ke tanahair tapi masih byk perkara yg belum selesai. Was hoping to start work asap but...dun think it's gonna happen with the attitude n system of moh, so lembaps! sometimes i regretted my decision, maybe i shud come back after my visa expired...but on the other hand, i got the chance to fast and celebrate eid with my family at home which I missed for the past 4 years. Syukur pada Allah dpt jugak bertemu Ramadan baru2 ini.

There is no real topic for this entry, actually just utk menulis sebab da boring sangat. Rasa mcm sgt membuang masa, bila buat something pon semua cam tak kena. Balik kalini memang byk benar ujian dr pelbagai arah. Betul2 menguji kesabaran, mungkin sebab iman sedang ditakuk paling rendah agaknya... sigh

Snow in Scotland 2009

2009-12-23T11:09:00.000-08:00

Wah...tahun ni snow turun dgn lebatnya kat UK..baru la betol2 merasa winter kat negara 4 musim...tp keseronokan snow tu tak berlarutan disebabkan masalah2 yang timbul akibat ketidaksediaaan government uk menghadapi cuaca yang melampau sejuknya...jalan tak di grit, garam tak mencukupi...

nak cerita pengalaman weken lepas terkandas kat motorway m80 selama lebih 2 jam, akibatnya..perjalanan dr glasgow to stirling yang biasanya mengambil masa setengah jam, tp hari tu mengambil masa selama 5 JAM! Nak dijadikan cerita haritu, lepas anta kawan kat umah die, bila nak kuarkan kete , kete taknak jalan, keeps skidding...tu 1st time kete skid sampai tak nak jln langsung..da super cuak da time tu. seb baek ada stranger lalu kat situ, so die tolong kuarkan kete ke jalan besar. pastu on the way kat great western road, jalan mmg tak treated, snow pon baru jer brenti time tu. sampai kat simpang nak kuar ke stirling, traffic da mula slow down...dan seterusnya, terus sangkut not even half way thru to stirling....byk kete time tu da patah balik ke glasgow....akibatnya, sy tak g keje keesokan hari nye sbb my cold symptoms get worse again! haha

dan harini pulak, tak bole nak parking betol2 masa smpai hospital, dah ler sampai setengah jam lambat sebab traffic yg teruk akibat drpd untreated road. seb baek tak dpt parking fine. pastu masa nak balik pulak, kete tak nak kuar, terpaksa buat muka tak malu mintak tolong org tolak kete..ish..pengalaman betol la dok sini.

ape pon2, 25 hb ni cuti..so kalo cuaca not too bad, bole la kuar amek gambar. harini masa kat satu roundabout tu, ade sorg photographer ni mengambil gambar salji together with bad traffic...haha

erm...i might take the shuttle bus to falkirk tomorrow depending on the weather...ohhh, its gonna be abover freezing tonight!

Dapurku Berasap kembali

2009-12-14T10:19:00.000-08:00

Hazelnut cake

Roti jala

Popia

need someone to talk to...

2009-09-22T11:35:00.000-07:00

Harini exam, kuar jer exam hall tadi, rasa terkedu...sangat tak confident. apsal la susah sgt soalan2 die...yang pelik2 lak tu, tak penah dengar ...geramnye!

agreed with my friend that we gonna meet again in the same hall next yr..haha...such a hard work...and failing means waste of time and money!

i need someone to talk to me right now..but seems like everyone is still busy with eid...it s only the 3rd of syawal...selamat hari raya and maaf zahir batin to semua...disebabkan exam ni jugak la, raya tahun ni agak limited...tak sempat nak lepak lama2 kat umah org, pegi raya pon brapa buah umah jer....takpe, next weken ada jemputan lagi, so i ll try to fulfill whatever i can

okie dokie...i m off now...going to work later...

Selamat hari raya

2009-09-18T14:10:00.000-07:00

Setiap kali rasa nak bercerita, tapi takde org nak borak dengan, sy akan choose utk update blog. Blog sememangnya tempat utk kite bercerita kan..pendengar setia saya takde, die balik msia...huhu

Harini da masuk samada malam ke 29 or 30 kita berteraweh (sy sdiri da lost track). yang pasti, ramadan da almost smpai ke penghujungnya...dan syawal da mula muncul. Bila muhasabah balik, tak tau la nak kata da samada tahun ni lebih baek atau tidak dr tahun lepas, tp insyallah kalo tak lebih baek pon, sekurang2nya sama level dengan yang lepas kot..so pada semua, nak ucapkan selamat hari raya dan maaf zahir batin. kalo ada salah silap, terkasar bahasa or termengumpat, harap dpt la dimaafkan.

sebelum sy mula menulis ni, ada org ketuk pintu umah, tak brani nak bukak...yer la arini kan friday night...walaupon neighbourhood ni is a safe area, tp 15 minit yg lalu ada budak2 nakal dok shouting kat luar, tu yang risau tu...bila sy jenguk kat tingkap, nampak van polis..baru la berani nak bukak pintu...polis tu dtg nak siasat kalo tau/kenal budak2 yang buat bising tadi tu...ni mesti ada jiran yang buat aduan agaknya...tadi terpikir jugak da kalo budak2 ni tak pergi dlm masa 5-10 minit or kalo diorg main dekat ngan kete saya, of course sy akan kol polis jugak...haha...cuak gak la...sian polis tu, sy tak dpt nak bagi maklumat pape pon sbb sy sdiri tak brani nak tengok luar td, takut lak kalo budak2 tu mabuk ke ape ke kan...harap2 takkn jadi lagi lepas ni...

da almost masuk 2 bulan sy dlm paediatrics dept..alhamdullillah, things getting better and i m now more confident..da berjaya masukkan cannulas in less than 2 years old, whom their vein is like tiny thread underneath the skin..haha...so far blom try lagi on newborn after my failure bout 3 weeks ago sebab takde chance...my shift has always been on the ward anyway...harini 1st time yang sy ketaq lutut (org kedah ckp) sebab this newborn baby taknak bernafas atau menangis...selalunya lepas seminit atau dua resuscitation, baby akan start menunjukkan signs of life. tapi baby ni sgt floppy, no air entry...my inflation breath pon da makin kurang effective...trus jerit sruh midwife crash call senior...within a minute, registrar sampai and take over...dekat 7 minit baru la baby start coughing...terpaksa repositioned dengan laryngoscope utk tengok kalo ada ape2 yang menyekat pernafasan dia...learning point of this is....bagi ibu2 mengandung sekalian..hehe, masa nak deliver nanti, janganla ambik diamorphine banyak sgt..huhu...try to stick to simple analgesia...haha (saying that, i have no experience..huhu)mum of this baby apparently da diberi diamorphine yang agak high dose, cord gas sgt acidotic...tu la sebab utama baby dia sleepy sgt, nak nangis pon macam takde, with respiratory depression..alhamdullillah, baby fine now

baru jenguk kat luar, van polis tu baru jer pergi, agaknya nak pergi round area lain pulak kot..nampak tadi diorg borak dgn jiran2 saya jugak..mcm frust je sbb tak dpt byk maklumat..yer la, dalam gelap2 ni, sapa yang nak kuar ambik risiko jumpa ngan budak2 nakal tu

selasa ni insyallah sy akan sit for my part 1...rasa sangat2 la tak ready...buat soalan, banyak yang salah dr yang betol..memang susah nak concentrate utk belajar bila da kerja ni..tambah2 pulak, sy kerja dlm bidang yang tak sama ngan exam, amek exam utk adult, tp kerja ngan children...stress jugak rasa bila nak study tu...i dont want to expect high...tp kalo bole nak sgt la pass, kalo tak membazir masa, duit dan tenaga ja..doakan sy pass exam ni..ameen

okla, rasanya nak siap2 utk tido dah, esok ngan lusa keja lagi...n most probably akan raya lusa...nasib baik buat short day jer, smpai pkol 3, kalo raya, bole la gi umah sape lepas keje...erm...nak raya kat mana agaknya yer? stirling, glasgow or dundee?hehe..kalo raya isnin, tak dptla nak beraya sakan sbb sy kena buat last minit stadi utk exam, masih blom cover statistics lagi ni..topik yang paling lemah dlm medicine...

wassalam

Ramadan Menjelma Kembali

2009-08-21T12:43:00.000-07:00

Kembali mengupdate blog...

Alhamdullillah...sekali lagi dapat bertemu dengan ramadan pada tahun ini.. insyallah malam ni marilah kita bersama-sama menunaikan solat terawih...orang kata kalo tak mula dari awal, nanti makin berat dan liat masa hujungnya

Sekali lagi sy menyambut ramadan di perantauan ditemani rakan2..taktau la bila pula akan dpt sambut ramadan dengan famili...dpt pegi bazar ramadan, beli itu, dan ini..hehe..rindu pulak dengan suasana ramadan kat msia..huhu. dan tahun ini, orang2 uk akan berpuasa agak lama berbanding tahun2 lepas..1st ramadan insyallah kena puasa dalam 17-18 jam...bila pikir balik, uish..lama tu...

Sebagai persediaan menyambut ramadan tahun ni, bole dikatakan sy kurang bersedia kalo compare dgn tahun sebelumnya...puasa rejab n syaaban pon sehari dua jer sbb lama sgt..(huhu..alasan). Insyallah nak pasang niat tahun ni utk khatam quran, paling tak pon, make sure ayat2 hafazan yang byk da lupa tu dihafal semula...dan insyallah, jom kita semua solat terawih setiap malam, at least 8 rakaat, kecuali kalo terpaksa bekerja shif malam, so melepas la terawih kan...

opps, kena berenti, magrib da masuk...

setahun berlalu

2009-07-19T12:11:00.000-07:00

Alhamdullillah, da almost setahun masuk ke alam pekerjaan dan segalanya berjalan dengan baik. Walaupun selalu diganggu dengan kekangan masa dan stress yang disebabkan oleh perkara yg remeh temeh, tapi semuanya dpt dilalui dengan cekal. Terima kasih buat kawan2 yang sentiasa memberi semangat mahupun memerli diri ini, kerana tanpa kalian, mungkin diri ini tidak punya semangat yang kuat.

Bagi diri ku, tidak banyak bezanya diri ini dengan setahun atau 2 tahun yang lalu. Mungkin lainnya sekarang sudah lebih matang, lebih berani bersuara disebabkan pekerjaan yang memerlukan kita berani mengeluarkan pendapat , jika tidak tentulah senang dibuli..lebih2 lagi oleh cik misi2 di ward =) Tapi yang lainnya, aku masih seperti dahulu..masih sendiri, masih tidak bijak dalam membuat keputusan...yang mana ini adalah kelemahan diri yang masih belum dapat aku atasi sampai lah ke harini. Disebabkan ini jugaklah, mungkin bulan depan aku terpaksa merempat di rumah org..hehe, sebabnya sampai sekarang masih belum dapat ku cari umah sewa di stirling... adusss...stress btol la bila pikirkan pasal umah

so malas nak layan, kalo dilayan, bole jadi tak betol.summer tahun ni, selain jalan2 ke oban tempoh hari, aku masih belum ada plan lain lagi. tak seperti tahun2 lepas, sejak dr bulan 3 lagi, semuanya da siap dirancang...tahla, agak sukar utk merancang apa2 bila da kerja ni..haritu pon bernasib baik dpt blk msia walaupun sekejap, sekurang2nya, takdala macam lupakan daratan. lepas 2 tahun lebih merantau, baru nak blk msia, sampai kawan2 kat msia pon da mula bercakap2

tak sampai sebulan lagi, aku akan mulakan kehidupan yang bole dikatakan baru. surrounding yang berbeza...stirling takkan sama dengan glasgow, samalah mcm glasgow memang tak sama dengan dundee...terpikir jugak, bagaimana agaknya nanti bila balik msia, balik bercuti lain, tp kalo balik utk mulakan kehidupan yang baru, pasti akan agak sukar pada mulanya...takut rasanya bila memikirkan pasal hal ini..sebab tu lah agaknya kalo org bertanya bila nak blk for good, aku belum punya jawapan yg firm...walaupun rasa nya dlm 70% mmg akan kena balik next yr disebabkan visa regulation yang semakin ketat..i cudnt be bothered anymore!

sesi merayau di stockholm selesai sudah...here i come berlin!

2009-05-10T13:46:00.000-07:00

Alhamdullillah, da habes merayau2 di sekitar bandar stockholm..memang merayau abes la, sesat barat semua...serata pelusuk stockholm kitorg pegi...alang2 da beli travel card kan. sekarang kat hotel kat airport sebab esok awal2 pagi kitorg akan bertolak ke berlin pulak..insyallah akan berada di sana selama 2 hari sebelum pulang ke glasgow..doakan we all selamat pulang..

I'm in stockholm

2009-05-08T15:48:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum
alhaldulillah, sy da selamat sampai kat ibu kota sweeden.Baru je abes nights kelmarin actually.kitorg smpai hotel dlm kol 1130, amek teksi dr stockholm centrale menandangkan hari hujan
n kitorg da malas nk jln. nmpak mcmm besar gak bandar ni.orang2 nye ppun mcm ok n bole ckp english.okla, nk tido dulu, da lewat. esok kalo wireless work, sy update lg cite jln2 kalini.wslm
nite..

west end blackout...

2009-03-30T13:41:00.000-07:00

Tadi lagi 15 minit sblom balik keje, tetibe power supply cut off, da 2 kali da jadi last week, tp within 5 minutes, trus jer on balik, tp tadi, dlm 5 minutes, generator baru nak on...power supply ter cut off dekat setengah jam la jugak td. camne la agaknya patient2 kat hdu ngan OT...Pastu on the way balik tu jalan thru hyndland, highburgh and byres road. sepanjang jalan traffic light tak work...1st time dlm uk tgk kete bersilang2, tunggang langgang, pedestrians pun melintas sesuke ati..takut gak nak melintas dekat byres road tadi, dah le cross road tu besar kan. Pastu bunyi siren bomba, polis n ambulance merata2...agaknye ada la yg berlaku tu...yer la blackout almost half an hour...balik tu tgk news, ada berita pasal ni, tp tak ckp le plak kawasan mana je yg affected...

Cite pasal selepas balik msia...mule2 tu rasa agak pelik jugak sebab skang ni setiap kali abis keje, still cerah lagi kat luar..aritu before blk msia setiap hari balik dah kol 9..mana taknye...

esok hari last saya kat surgery...specifically ortho...after this no more surgery..apart from obsgyn, which is obviously different kan..

takut gak nak start medicine..huhu...risau2...blom revise lagi my medicine...tolongla doakan sy supaya ada semangat nak stadi

till next time...

Balik malaysia

2009-03-16T09:41:00.000-07:00

Salam alaik...da lama nak update tapi tak terupdate jugak blog ni. Ni pun sebab dok tunggu gate open, seb baek dpt connect wifi kat klia ni. harap2 bateri laptop ni sempat bertahan...

Alhamdullillah, sampai jugak sy ke tanah air setelah lebih 2 tahun berada di negara orang. Sangat la banyak perubahan dari segi pembangunan nya, persekitarannya, service malah attitude orang2 di msia ni sendiri.

Kalo dr segi pembangunan tu, tak usah nak cakap la, alor star sendiri da sgt2 membangun...memang sesuai diiktiraf jd bandaraya. Semua nya da da la sekarang ni. KL pulak lebih2 la lagik, fly over bertambah sana sini, makin la susah orang nak ingat jalan esp org mcm sy yg tak dok KL. Tapi yg tak bestnye attitude org2 kat sini. Dalam perkataan yg sopan, makin kurang gentleman nya. Susah sgt nak beradab sopan. Pemandu2 kat msia ni makin teruk. Jadi cuak pon ada gak bila bwk kete...pastu kita pon jadi geram, tak heran la kalo lama2 saya balik sini, perangai pon jadi macam diorg ni. takde rasa bertimbang rasa.

Memang dr dulu lagi org msia terkenal sebagai kurang friendly, tak kesah la tak nak bertegur sapa, senyum pon susah...aduhai...tapi , ade jer yg masih ok..alhamdullillah kalo jumpa org2 camtu. Ni yang saya tengah geram ni, baru jer saya nak mule online tadi, tetibe bau asap rokok, pelik den, setau sy, kat klia ni sign NO SMOKING sebanyak2 mungkin...pusing jer kanan, nampak sorang pakcik ni tgh smoking, sembunyi2+tunjuk2 jugak la ...terus sy angkat laptop , cari tempat jauh sikit. Ish...sakit ati btol...sy da ler sensitif bau rokok ni..nak tegur, nanti kang jadi halpulak, sebab takde staff klia langsung dkt area2 ni..maklumla, skang ni da nak dekat kol 1 pagi, so staff pon limited la agaknye kot...

Okla...taknak tulih panjang2, sebab battery laptop ni pon da hampir nak kong. Yang pasti, sy bersyukur dpt balik msia, dpt jumpa parents, family, kawan2 wpon sekejap...dpt makan makanan msia wpon tak sempat nak sumbat semua, sempat rasa panas msia yang sememangnya la lain dgn summer kat scotland..hehe

Esok sampai glasgow, lusa kena kerja..huhu...seb baek la tinggal 10 hari je lagi , tu pon kat ortho, so takde la teruk sgt kot...compared to gen surgery...lepas ni kena bersiap sedia utk medicine, takut jugak, sbb da lama tak bukak buku. Harap2 dgn ada nya lampu cahaya putih, sy akan lebih semangat utk baca buku...hehe

Sekian...

Why I hate surgery? Or maybe I shud change it to why I hate surgeon?

2009-02-28T14:10:00.000-08:00

Saje je buat tajuk gempak, post kali ni akan ditulis dalam bahasa melayu..untuk menjaga hati beberapa pihak..huhu.

2 bulan, atau boleh saya katakan 3 bulan saya buat oncall dekat acute surgery, dan lebih kurg 4 bulan dekat surgical ward...macam2 yang bole saya simpulkan. Dulu saya penah suka kan surgery, pernah terfikir nak masuk specialty ni, tapi lepas perhatikan perangai 'surgeon', dari SHO nye ke SpR sampaila ke consultant nye..erm, terus tak berminat nak jadi surgeon.
Sebabnya;
1-attitude yang teruk eg suka mencari kesalahan orang, tak pernah appreciate colleague apatah lagi junior. Kalo tengok diorg ni, operate pon salah, tak operate pon salah. Musykil den! Bukanla nak kata semua surgeon sama, ada jugak yg ok, tp sekurang-kurangnya 80% mcm tuh la. 2-Suka buat keputusan tah apa2. Patient hypotension, 1st management- buat synacthen test! takkan tak reti nama nya tu? bukannya nak tengok apa medication patient on, ada bleeding ke...tah apa2!
3-lebih kurang mcm attitude tadi, tp nak elaborate sikit, suka cakap org lain tak betol, dia saja yg betol. contohnye la kan...ada surgeon suka buat cholecystectomy masa acute presentation, ada yang suka patient settle dulu, patutnya tak kesah la kan, ikut la seseorg surgeon tu punya believe dan practice kan, tak payah la nak kutuk2 colleague, ni tak. team A mengata team B, team B mengutuk team C. Apa la!
4-Tak reti basic medical management, bukan semua la, tapi sikit2, refer medics,mintak medics to review, sampai kitorg yang junior2 kadang2 taktau on what basis nak refer medics, sebabnya kitorg rasa patient takde pon medical problem! nasib baikla medical docs da paham perangai surgeon ni.
5-bila bekerja dengan surgeon kan, u're expected to be a mind reader, tak percaya? cuba la try buat ward round dengan diorg ni..da la communication fail...
Nak buat kesimpulan-saya tak sabar nak tunggu habes surgery! Next month is gonna be my last month working in surgical ward in my whole career I hope...no more after surgery after this!

3 hari...2 hari...sehari...yea...tolak beg, masuk kargo, naik flight terbang...haha

5 more weeks to go...

2009-01-25T06:04:00.000-08:00

Tak sabar rasanya nak balik msia, da 2 tahun stengah tak balik ni, mesti da sgt byk perubahan kat bandar aloq staq tu....spupu sepapat sedara mara semua pon mesti da lain, yg dulu kecik2, mesti da besar, makin bertambah ramai pulak tu, takut tak kenal balik nanti...ish2, takut pon ada gak bila pikir nak balik ni...

Anyway, saja nak citer sikit pasal kursus kesempurnaan solat yang saya join semalam, wpun decide nak pegi last minute (yg bestnye cik zaleha ni setuju pulak nak ikut bila diajak, time kaseh kerana sudi temankan)hehe....rasanya the last time belajar/revise balik pasal solat ni masa PAFA skolah menengah dulu, pastu mana ada da org nak examine kie nye solat. Padahal sepatutnye, solat kite ni kena la update sapanjang masa...sama mcm bende lain gak. Kalo dlm medicine, kite baca journal, tgk up to date medical news or intervention, sama jugak mcm solat, paling2 pergi dgr ceramah kat masjid/surau or join kursus cam semalam tu. Macam yg UZAR ckp semalam, kalo berharap nak dgr ceramah ni, 4 tahun pon blom tentu cukup, kejap kite tak dtg, kejap ustaznye tak sempat hadir...macam2 lah org melayu ni..hehe

Banyak bende yg selama ni kite amalkan rupenye ikutan semata2, bak kata UZAR , mazhab sendiri, tak pon mazhab ustaz/ustazah....ish2...wpun smlm byk bende yg rasa nye 'lawak', tp bak kata org, ketawa tu ketawa jugak, tp ilmu yg dpt tu jangan lupa, jangan pegi ambik lawak nye saja time program smalam ye kawan2...

Okla, rasa stop sini dulu...not looking forward to next weekend ...sebabnye kena kerja...huhu. But that would mean, another 4 weeks to go!

Penah tak rasa macam...

2009-01-10T15:05:00.000-08:00

Macam nak quit jadi doktor? (pertanyaan pada kawan2 sekerja sekalian). ...Sighh

The 'beauty and the beast' of night shift

2008-12-21T10:06:00.000-08:00

Tonight is my last night shift in gartnavel for this year. It has been quite good, i have to admit. Totally different from night shift in western. Most of the nights have been quiet except for last thurday. It was quite exciting though...every night there s usually one patient becomes hypotensive, one tacypnoeic and one tachycardic. Couple of few more becomes pyrexial, which usually happened bout 7 am in the morning after the obs round. That night, one lady in ENT ward started to bleed to her nose again, well, she came in with epistaxis, get her nose pack and cauterised, but still she was bleeding through the pack and it was soaking all through. Our usual reflex is when somene is bleeding u give lots of fluid, usually stat as that person most of the time will start to become hypotensive, but it was different this time. The BP came back as high instead, it was bout 164/85...at that time, i was panic, seriously dunno what to do...she got fluid going through anyway, but her high BP makes me looks really stupid as i was blank, no idea of what am i supposed to do...and yet, she is still bleeding.

The incidence was a good experience...we manage to get the Spr on call to come in and cauterised the vessels which were bleeding. And she actually loss bout 5g of Hb due to the epistaxis...I was surprised how much bloods we can lost just by bleeding through the nose.

Anyway, I do enjoyed my night shifts as usually i have 2 hours rest doing nothing , maybe because there s not many patients on the ward as christmas coming, so those on the ward are the one that have to stay in the hospital. In fact, last night I manage to sleep for two hours, only that they dun provide on call doctors with a mess or at least bed for us. So i had to sleep on the chairs in the doctor's room, which happen to be quite comfy..haha

As compared to western shift, it was really busy, sometime u dun even have time to eat...it s just continuous the whole night...with admission in a&e and out of hours gp...

ok, time to go.... (no access to blogspot in hospital..huhu)

Testing..testing

2008-12-15T00:18:00.000-08:00

Saje jer harini try buat kuih seri muka sbb dok tgk beras pulut ada lagi, takut nanti rosak pulak, sayang...import dr msia tu..
hasilnyer dlm gambar tu....

Nothing to update huh

2008-11-17T11:50:00.000-08:00

Salam alaik..havent been updating this blog for ages...

Its almost 4 months now that I have been working as a doctor. So many things happened so far. Not going to say any of that here. But the conclusion I can make is that I actually enjoyed being a student. No responsibilities, dont have to wake up early in the morning thinking bout going to work two weeks time from today, not long to wait...

Anyway, let;s just forget about work. for my annual leave this rotation, I went to italy with couple of mates...really enjoyed it, damn great! i what sense? the feeling that i dont have to go to work tomorrow the night before i went to sleep...haha...well, i hv always wanted to go to italy, n yea, finally been there. And that trip, we thought it's going to be hectic as we travelled around italy in 7 days to be more accurate, excluding travelling days, going there and coming back to glasgow.

If u want to go to Italy, make sure u spent ur time there, dont be in rush cos u will regret it. Lots of places to visit. If i were to rank the places i ve been to, that would be:
1-venice and surrounding islands
2-verona including lake garda
3-pisa
4-florence
5-rome (some people prefer rome but i dont, its such a busy city, traffic is so baddd!)
6-milan -kind of boring to us,not many tourist places

My next annual leave is gonna be better, why?becos i am going HOME!cant wait for that. i hv booked my ticket, well prepared...hope everything goes well.

Next trip could be prague or berlin or brussels or barcelona. but the cheapest flight in february is to oslo, in norway. It will be a nice one if i can ski..but apparently i cant...huhu...its gonna snowing heavily in feb there...will be damn cold...well, if anyone is free this feb, from 7-10, let me know, maybe we can go somewhere together, cos i am searching for next holiday. currently waiting confirmation from couple of friends, still unsure where to go though

i'll update pics from italy visit later, already updated my fotopages

Selamat hari kebangsaan

2008-08-31T12:48:00.001-07:00

Lupa pulak, hari ni 31 ogos..hari kemerdekaan negara Malaysia...tp btolker kite da merdeka?masihkah kita dijajah minda penjajah dulu?mari kita pikir2kanlah....

tak lupa utk adik, happy birthday! soryla..hadiah tak sampai2 lagi walau da diorder berkurun lamanya

and utk semua umat islam, selamat berpuasa.Central mosque Glasgow da confirm start posa Isnin...byk2kanla bersabar ek utk semua yg kat uk...sbb tahun ni kita posa panjang dari tahun lepas..hehe

saja nak ingat kan semua org, jom kita ramai2 ringan2 kan tangan utk bersedekah (terutamanya to those yg baru dpt gaji..hehe)

sekian..wassalam

Selamat Berpuasa

2008-08-30T14:05:00.000-07:00

Insyaallah kita akan start posa esok or lusa. Just nak ucapkan selamat berpuasa pada semua & minta maaf kalo ada pape salah silap. Semoga Ramadhan tahun ni akan lebih baik dari tahun sebelumnya, insyaallah.

Iftida,
yg penat naik turun tangga
p/s-esok keje lagik..huhu

Selepas 14 hari bekerja

2008-08-25T13:31:00.000-07:00

Salam alaik...erm, da lama tak update blog ni...nak kata takde masa, tak ler jugak, nak kata malas tu ade jugak la...tp slalunya keadaan tak mengizinkan..ini pon survive dgn mobile broadband jer yg kadang2 ok, kdg2 tak...nasibla kan

Harini da hari ke 14 bekerja as a doctor kat garnavel hosp. Ni pon baru jer balik, shift habes pkol 830pm hari ni..alhamdullillah late shift pretty quiet today. cuma during the day jer agak hectic. banyak sgt admissions over the weekend, pastu ada death early this morning...so bole imagine la kan semua org very stressful. At the moment, saya tengah buat urology (diperbetulkan yer, UROlogy, bukan neurology) sbb slalu sgt org ingat saya buat urology, ingatkan i'm d only person with that problem, rupenye my colleague pon sama..hehe..terus terang, saya bersyukur start ngan this ward, dpt blajar new things day by day, and takde la too busy sangat kalo compare ngan ward lain (as we both finish on time, or the latest 530pm..hehe) and also i got a good n cooperative colleague.

Ade org sruh citer pasal my accomodation at the moment..haha...(ni org2 yg nak mengutuk saya lah ni)haha...bilik kotak (bak kata kaklin) skang stay kat yorkhill accomodation..actually not too bad la....apart from the bad coverage for my 3 network (yg sgt hampeh)..but at least sometimes, i am able to go online with it. my flatmates are currently mat saleh, but i rarely see them.yerla balik keje pon time masing2, then da penat, dok jer dlm bilik. during weekends, none of us are here..hari ahad petang/mlm , baru ler nampak batang hidung masing2. the only thing yg i lack of is i need a television. that's what i m gonna buy with my 1st pay..haha...fuh, tak sabar gaji nak masuk khamis ni..haha

hari ni baru hari isnin, kalo slalu, akan mule la nak mengira bila nak weekend, but not this week, bcos i am on call this weekend! scary ar...tak penah lagik keje weekend ni...pastu sambung isnin buat lates lagik, dah ler isnin depan maybe 1st ramadan...haha..bukak posa kat hospital ler jwbnye...

stop cn dulu..sambung next time

Mak ayah sampai di UK.....tapi harini da balik msia....sobsob

2008-07-24T11:51:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah....sekejap jer 3 minggu berlalu..pejam celik pejam celik, da cukup masa. Hari tu rasa baru lagi mak ngan ayah sampai, tuptup da nak balik msia da arini. Kenapa la cepat sgt masa berlalu kan..
Skarang ni rasa tak leh nak tulih pape, nak layan blues jer...rasa sunyi umah ni diorg da blk..huhu. Nanti saya update fotopages letak gambar aktiviti diorg masa dtg sini.

p/s-mak ngan ayah nanti mai lagi tau

Menu hari ini adalah....

2008-06-19T05:26:00.000-07:00

Harini masak masakan melayu pulak, kalo kelmarin bihun sup, hari ni...jeng2..sile lihat gambar di atas...ade org teringin nak pulut kuning dgn rendang sebab disebut2 dlm menu international buffet tu..haha..dessert nye pulak buah melaka..memang ala2 minum petang kat msia la ni..khas utk sape2 yg rindukan msia. p/s-siti, kite dedicate khas utk siti ni. tau la kat sini takde jual kuih muih cam kat msia.

Let's cook! start baking again...

2008-06-17T17:12:00.000-07:00

Yea...2 weeks holidays almost finished..so i've filled up my time by hanging out with friends, get myself fit, of course doing some shopping, get in touch with some old friends and last but not least, do my hobby which is cooking particularly baking. We went for a walk from Anstruther to Crail that day, which took us approximately 2 hours before we reached Crail and the walk was awesome! Kind of frustrating cos we planned to take the boat to Isle of May but it was fully booked when we arrived there, but anyway...it was a good walk tho. After that, we cycled from Dundee to St.Andrew, which took us 3 hours for one way journey (I dint know that I'm that fit..haha =P) and with my bike which is much inferior compared to the others (who borrowed theirs from the Ancrum Centre =P). And been baking a lot these days...cheese cakes, brownies...and the latest...cream eclairs. I just realised that it is much easier to do pastry than bake a cake after this while huh. For those who want the recipe, i can give it, it is so easy . Sorila, my presentation is not that good, cos the best one has been eaten before I took this photo!

Another 2 months as a medical student

2008-05-28T08:30:00.000-07:00

The old version

The new version

Salam alaik. First of all, I would like to thank my parents, friends and all my colleagues for their support and prayer thru out my life as a medical student. Eventually, I am unofficially a doctor now...hahaha...glad it's all over. However, I realised that it's not going to be easier, graduation is just the beginning of everything, of a true life if I can say that.

At the moment, I still have to attend few lectures as a preparation course before start working, and then will be goin to glasgow for shadowing for another one week. Then, my parents coming over for graduation and holiday (hooray! cant wait for that). So, to all my colleagues out there, lets use our student card wisely (what an advise huh!) As all our seniors and lecturers were saying, enjoy our life now...and dun forget to enjoy our life when we work as a doctor...we r all humans! dun make ourselves suffer (this is for myself really) I am scared thinking bout being a doctor, ohhh....such responsibilities......scary

Few last words for this entry.. -congrats to all my friends who already passed and will start working with me -for those who r studying for their exams esp to other dundee , aberdeen & edinburgh medics, and oso for others esp my best friend down in soton, good luck! I will be praying for u all...insyaAllah, everything will be fine... wassalam

Maafkan daku...

2008-04-24T10:03:00.000-07:00

Salam semua..sorila tajuk sounds mcm something wrong jer kan..haha..da lama sangat tak update blog ni, ingatkan takde dah org nak masuk, still ade lagi yg masih setia. Bukan taknak update, tapi masa tak mengizinkan untuk duduk depan laptop dan menaip something. Almost 4 minggu da tak update, since saya pergi mesir haritu. Ingatkan nak jugak tulis pengalaman kat mesir tapi sungguh, masa betul2 mencemburui saya..huhu.Memang saya da agak pon, cuti easter haritu is my last cuti...betullah lah jangkaan saya. Sekarang ni tgh buat medical shadowing kat ward cardio, and next week kat acute ward. which means less time for internet nowadays...haha. and yg paling penting, exam is just around the corner. so kena concentrate sket..rasanya setakat ni dulu.. doakan saya...

seronoknye...hehe

2008-03-14T12:59:00.000-07:00

inilah basikal baru ku...haha...trima kaseh diucapkan pada kak maziah sbb bagi basikal tuh kat saya...da lama tak naik basikal, tadi penat jugak la mengayuh..dah ler dundee berbukit2...ape2 pon, cite2 nak berbasikal akhirnye tercapai...hehe

p/s
-tengkiu pada semua yg wish...da 24 tahun saya idup..huhu...ape bakti yg saya da hulurkan eh?(berfikir sejenak)
-saja nk bgtau pada sape yg taktau lagi, kalo ade sesape nak buat railcard dgn harga 12 pounds shj, sile gune promotion code ni SAVING12. syarat nye kena buat online, valid till 16th march only

Ceria-ceria selalu

2008-03-13T00:04:00.000-07:00

Time kaseh kawan2...sayang korang

Keputusan pilihanraya 12

2008-03-09T00:06:00.000-08:00

Alhamdullillah, segalanya kita da tahu. Malaysia bakal menyaksikan bentuk pemerintahan yang berbeza for the next 5 years insyaAllah. Berikut senarai MB/KM yang baru dilantik hasil kejayaan BA di 4 buah negeri lain selain Kelantan.

KEDAH : Azizan ABdul Razak (PAS)
PERAK : IR Muhd Nizar (PAS)
PENANG : Guan Eng (DAP)
SELANGOR : Khalid Ibrahim (PKR)

Go to here to see interesting quotes from important people or used to be important people in malaysia.

What a shame

2008-03-05T15:27:00.000-08:00

Cant believe it today i almost fainted! and it was in the ward.luckily i dun.sigh. Agrrrrr. it's not weird to see medical students or doctors fainted in theatre (i said this because I knew who did..huhu) Fortunately i managed to get hold of myself, get permission to sit and was ask to go home early. Alhamdullillah, managed to attend afternoon class after having good rest plus couple of paracetamol. (Take my word: i am not a good patient tho i can be a good doctor)

Ayat-ayat cinta the movie

2008-03-03T15:16:00.000-08:00

Nak menyelit jap... baru habes tgk cite ni tadi
Erm...honestly, rasa sket tak puas hati dgn movie ni sebab diorg da ubah sket jalan citer compare dgn bukunye & ade adegan2 yg tak tunjuk pon takpe. tp bole la kalo nak tgk. Ape2 pon, bukunye lagi best...
Kalo malas nak download, bole tgk kat youtube jer. Click sini

Pilihanraya da dekat

2008-03-03T05:30:00.000-08:00

Adikku menulis-"penah tak korang rasa nak termuntah tiap-tiap kali tengok berita, iklan ngan baca paper?"
Jawapan saya-penah, dulu la tapi, skang ni sebab da tak tengok berita n iklan, paling2 pon baca paper jer....hahahaha...

Next election tak lama lagi. Ish....tak sabar nak tengok kali ni rakyat nak pilih sapa. Kepada semua kawan kat msia, pergilah mengundi, dan undilah dengan rasional. Tak dapat saya nak gi mengundi kalini, which is supposed to be my 1st time mengundi, huhu...tak mendaftar lagi pulak tuh (camna bole lupa nak daftar ni)

That was awesome!

2008-02-21T14:34:00.000-08:00

Attended a talk about 'my journey to Islam' by Idris Tawfiq this evening. He used to be a priest before and now is a da'ie and doing lots of dakwah. I never heard of him before but I really like the way he gave the talk and interact to the audience. Bought a book writen by him, havent got time to read it yet, but will do it later InsyaAllah. His website is here if anyone would like to browse.

Btw, i've already knew my placement for the next 2 years. Will be in Western Infirmary and Gartnavel for my F1 and Stirling and Falkirk for F2, InsyaAllah. The good thing is, I knew 2 other msians who got the same placement as me..wow, isnt that great? =)

Mengapa baru sekarang?

2008-02-19T05:52:00.000-08:00

“ Dan berkatalah kepada para perempuan yang beriman, agar mereka menjaga pandangan, dan memelihara kemaluannya, dan janganlah menampakkan perhiasannya (auratnya), kecuali yang biasa terlihat. Dan hendaklah mereka menutup kain kerudung ke dadanya, dan janganlah menampakkan perhiasannya (auratnya) kecuali kepada suami mereka, atau ayah mereka, atau ayah suami mereka, atau putra-putra mereka, atau putra-putra suami mereka, saudara-saudara laki-laki mereka, , atau putra-putra saudara lelaki mereka, atau putra-putra saudara perempuan mereka, atau para perempuan (sesama Islam) mereka atau hamab sahaya yang mereka miliki, atau para pelayan laki-laki (tua) yang tidak mempunyai keinginan (terhadap perempuan), atau anak-anak yang belum mengerti tentang aurat perempuan….”.

surah an-nur ayat 31

Seperti yang dijanjikan, berikut adalah cerita mangapa tudung mula2 diharamkan di Turki dulu. Pengharaman dibuat lebih 20 tahun lalu selepas rampasan kuasa oleh pihak tentera pada awal 1980-an. Tujuannya kononnya untuk menyekat kebangkitan gerakan Islamik yang mengancam dasar sekularisme Turki warisan Mustaffa Kamal Ataturk. Selain universiti, larangan pemakaian tudung turut dikuatkuasakan di sektor awam seperti sekolah dan hospital.

Selepas Perdana Menteri Erdogan mengumumkan untuk menghapuskan pengharaman tudung, pelbagai pihak mula menunjukkan tentangan terutamanya pihak tentera.
“Tudung adalah satu simbol politik,” demikian hujah Profesor Nilufer Narli, ketua jabatan sosiologi Universiti Bahcesehir. Beliau merupakan antara ribuan warga Turki yang membantah pencalonan awal Abdullah Gul sebagai Presiden Mei lalu.

Abdullah Gul, sekarang merupakan Presiden Turki. Beliau telah mendapat tentangan hebat dari pihak tertentu yang beranggapan bahawa beliau pro-islam. Ini ditambah pula dengan isteri beliau yang bertudung dan kini merupakan wanita pertama bertudung semasa menghadiri majlis negara selepas beliau dilantik.

Sekadar rumusan sahaja. Ada banyak sumber kalo nak baca pasal hal ni.

Lagi isu pasal tudung

2008-02-10T07:11:00.000-08:00

Boleh pakai tudung di universiti - Parlimen

ANKARA 9 Feb. - Parlimen Turki hari ini telah mengundi menarik balik
pengharaman pemakaian tudung di universiti dalam keputusan yang tidak
pernah berlaku sebelumnya, ketika terdapat bantahan besar-besaran
daripada golongan berfahaman sekular.

Pindaan perlembagaan itu telah diluluskan dengan undian 411
menyokong berbanding 103 menentang oleh Parlimen yang dikuasai secara
majoriti oleh Parti AK.

''Cadangan pindaan telah diluluskan. Saya berharap ia dilakukan demi
kepentingan Turki dan dilaksanakan atas semangat toleransi dan tanda
perdamaian,' ' kata speaker Parlimen, Koksal Toptan kepada ahli-ahli
Parlimen selepas pengundian dijalankan.

Sementara itu, berpuluh ribu rakyat Turki mengibarkan bendera mereka
dan melaungkan slogan sekular sebagai protes terhadap perubahan
berkenaan hanya beberapa kilometer dari Parlimen di tengah Ankara.

Perdana Menteri Tayyip Erdogan dari Parti AK, berkata, pengharaman
pemakaian tudung merupakan satu penafian yang tidak adil terhadap hak
asasi individu dan kebebasan beragama di Turki yang mana dua pertiga
wanitanya menutup kepala mereka.

- Agensi

p/s-tak sempat la nak update, quite busy sket now nih..huhu

Isu Tudung di Turki

2008-01-31T09:12:00.000-08:00

Tertarik dengan berita baru-baru ini, ingatkan nak update blog weekend, tapi takpela...copy paste jer dulu..hehe

Ni berita pada hari Isnin lepas, petikan from berita harian
'ISTANBUL: Perdana Menteri Turki, Recep Tayyip Erdogan berkata semalam, beliau mahu larangan memakai tudung di universiti dihapuskan secepat mungkin walaupun ditentang hebat golongan sekular. “Masanya sudah sampai untuk mengakhiri masalah ini,” kata Erdogan...'

And yang ni pulak berita hari ini- Tentera Bantah Benar Bertudung
ANKARA: Draf undang-undang menyarankan pengharaman memakai tudung di universiti selama beberapa dekad supaya ditarik balik oleh segera, dibantah golongan sekular dan tentera, semalam. Pemimpin Parti Rakyat Republikan yang prosekular - Deniz Baykal, menyifatkan cubaan menarik balik pengharaman itu sebagai 'ancaman kepada republik.' Ahli perundangan akan mengundi draf itu seawal minggu depan. Pengasas Turki moden, Mustafa Kemal Ataturk, mengharamkan pakaian agama dalam kehidupan seharian.

Erm...pelik kan, ape la yg dibanggakan sangat dengan Mustafa Kamal Atartuk tuh?? Next entry akan diulas pasal sejarah 'tudung' nih insyaAllah..

yea yea, esok last day...tak sabar nak abes block ni......tak sabar nak weekend nih..huhu

Jom Muhasabah Diri

2008-01-26T13:38:00.000-08:00

Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda yang maksudnya:
'Berwaspadalah terhadap prasangka. Sesungguhnya prasangka adalah percakapan yang paling dusta'

Salah satu akhlak Islam ialah berbaik sangka dengan orang lain. Diakui memang agak susah nak sentiasa berprasangka baik, tapi sebagai seorang muslim, kita tak sepatutnya menyerah kalah pada bisikan syaitan. Sesungguhnya, prasangka buruk itu datangnya dari syaitan yang ingin menguji keimanan seseorang manusia.

Berbaik sangka ni bukan sahaja applikasi nya sesama manusia, tapi juga pada pemerintah malah pada pencipta kita, yakni Allah

Prasangka pada pemerintah-Sebetulnya, saya kurang arif dalam hal ini (sebab dulu slalu tutup telinga bila org bercakap hal2 berkaitan politik, patriotisma dsb) Ni sekadar yang saya faham la kan. Dalam hal ini, ijtihad adalah dibenarkan. Berijtihad dalam Islam adalah mengeluarkan kemampuan untuk mengetahui suatu hukum syara’ berdasarkan dalil-dalil yang syar’i.Sepatutnya kita mendahulukan baik sangka dan tidak mengikut prasangka buruk. Ada pelbagai pendapat dalam hal ini, antaranya kita patut berdiam diri terhadap pemerintah, ada pula berpendapat kita patut berkonfrontasi yang mana ia boleh dilakukan samada melalui politik atau ketenteraan. Dengan kata lain, pendapat para ulamak @ org yang mempunyai pengetahuan mendalam mengenai Islam perlu diambil kira.

Berbaik sangka dengan Allah-Saya sdiri tak penah tahu sebenarnya tantang perkara ini. Contoh paling senang mengenai berbaik sangka dgn Allah.
'bila seseorang manusia itu melakukan kebaikan dan bersungguh-sungguh, dia tetap berkata-Saya bimbang Allah tidak menerimanya. Allah hanya menerima amalan org2 yg bertaqwa. Saya tidak tahu adakah saya di kalangan mereka'-rasanya senang nak paham kot kan

Mari sama2 berpikir n muhasabah diri masing2. Wallahualam.
p/s: if anything, just pm me for any comments or questions

Hukum berubat dengan bukan mahram

2008-01-26T13:33:00.001-08:00

Untuk bacaan semua khususnya para doktor dan bakal2 doktor di luar sana. Artikel ni copy dr ulamaummah, hasil tulisan ustaz@dr.muhaimin

Kaedah fekah ada yang berbunyi, 'darurat mengharuskan perkara yang ditegah'
الضرورة تبيح المحظورة.

Sebagaimana maklum adalah tidak harus wanita membuka sesuatu pun daripada tubuhnya kepada lelaki ajnabi(asing) selain daripada muka dan tapak tangan. Tidak harus menyentuh tanpa pelapik kecuali dalam keadaan darurat dengan ketiadaan suami, atau mahram, atau wanita muslimah yang mampu berbuat demkian.

Begitu juga tidak harus bagi lelaki memperlihatkan auratnya kepada wanita ajnabiyyah, bersentuhan dan sebagainya.

Namun begitu tidak ada tegahan yang melarang daripada melihat dan menyentuh dalam keadaan darurat untuk tujuan rawatan. Hendaklah dipastikan bahawa keadaan tersebut benar-benar darurat, tiada kaum sejenis yang mampu berbuat demikian dan hendaklah menjaga adab-adab dan adanya mahram atau ditemani oleh kaum sejenis pesakit.

Pada masa yang sama hendaklah meraikan kaedah fekah yang berbunyi: 'darurat dikira (dikadarkan) mengikut keadaannya' الضرورة تقدر بقدرها. Dengan maksud, meliihat, menyentuh dan merawat kawasan aurat yang hanya pada tempat yang diperlukan sahaja, tidak dibenarkan lebih daripada hajat dan keperluan.

Dinyatakan dalam kitab Iqna' oleh kahatib Syarbini bahawa pandangan untuk berubat harus pada tempat yang berhajat sahaja, kerana pengharaman pada ketika itu bersifat menyempitkan, maka boleh seorang lelaki merawat wanita dan sebaliknya. Hendaklah keadaan itu dengan kehadiran mahram atau suami atau wanita yang dipercayai
....

Maaf kiranya bahasa yang digunakan agak 'thuras' dan agak kefekahan sedikit. Kebetulan tejumpa artikel lama dalam simpanan saya yang pernah ditulis sekian lama dahulu, sekadar untuk manfaat bersama.

Apa pun sekadar ingatan buat semua, terkadang ramai yang menyalah gunakan kaedah fekah dengan sewenang-wenangnya. Contohnya kaedah 'harus kerana darurat' banyak disalahertikan dalam keadaan ramai yang tidak memahami konteks pemahaman darurat yang sebenarnya dari kaca mata Islam.

Jadi bagi doktor terutamanya sewajarnya mengetahui :

1. Fahami erti sebenar konsep darurat

2. Tahu had dan batasan yang dibolehkan

Buat para doktor, bukannya mudah untuk mempraktikkannya dalam dunia realiti tanpa iman dan istiqamah yang mantap. Bila agaknya perubatan di negara kita akan betul-betul mengikut acuan Islam?

p/s sebagai student, saya akui agak sukar nak mempraktiskan ni terutamanya jika belajar di negara asing spt uk..wallahualam

It's Sunday Again...and few words about paeds

2008-01-20T01:01:00.000-08:00

Salam alaik...

Kejapnyer da Ahad...esok da sekolah balik, kena balik stirling...huhu...semalam pegi glenshee beramai-ramai...best, tapi tak puas hati sebab tak berjaya nak main snowboard dgn baek, ni yang rasa nak pegi lagi nih...walaupun banyak kali, as in berkali-kali jatuh, tapi takpe...kita kena bangkit semula bila terjatuh~sama la dalam kehidupan kita, dun ever give up....practice makes perfect kan!

Anyway...actually i wanted to say something bout medicine in this entry...da lama tak tulis pasal medicine...since exam is coming (4 months from now) so i think i should...

As i am doing ssc in paeds now, i'll list down all the tips n topics which i think important for paeds (i bet it's goin to be useful especially to 4th yrs)

recognise sick child-in children, the most important thing is observation, to be able to recognise this, u have to know how a fit n healthy child looks like first
for history and examination, these needs lots of practice....especially auscultation of the chest...honestlt i find it difficult, kids heart beats faster than adults...this can mislead u if they hv murmur...can also make it difficult to listen to the breath sound...n also able to distract them esp babies, smile at them, believe me they r gonna like u
they always come in with vague symptoms-headache, pyrexia, diarrhoea, vomiting-common things are common, but dun miss out life threatening condition
for topics, let's go by system:

resp-acute exacerbation of asthma, bronchiolitis n other URTIs
cvs-congenital heart disease
GI-gastroenteritis, gi obstruction
cns-meningitis, cerebral palsy
development-developmental delay, failure to thrive, short stature (memorise children development), practice this by guessing the child age before u ask their parents
gui-uti
endo-diabetes
ms-rarely, usually trauma, autoimmune condition ie juvenile arthritis
nai (non accidental injury)
memorise immunisation schedule ( i do have problems with this..huhu)

neonates:

problems with premature babies
jaundice
hypoglycaemia
low birth weight, IUGR

last but not least-remember children are not small adults, treat them as they are...

Let's go thru it

2008-01-12T14:43:00.000-08:00

Bismillahirahmanirrahim

Seminggu da masuk sekolah. Semangat as student da mula nak develop semula, alhamdulillah. Last wednesday, dapat result mtas. Alhamdullillah dpt my 1st choice, scotland, so InsyaAllah will be in scotland for the next 2 years kalo takde aral melintang. So now nih tgh berpikir nak apply keje kat mane lak. Da list pros n cons utk region2 in scotland

glasgow

edinburgh

dundee

aberdeen

-more posts

-less competitive

-postings lagi best, ada paeds n obs gynae both

-busy hospitals

-big city

-airport dekat, senang nk blk msia or g mane2

-larger msian community

-kawan, ramai da nk blk msia

-high living expenses

-posts less than Glasgow

-more competitive

-postings more or less okay

-busy hospitals

-big city

-ade airport, but Glasgow easier

-community so n so...

-kawan, ade la few

-sewa umah mahal

Lets try a new environment

No thanks

Till now, i will go for glasgow. tp ramai org sruh stay kat dundee which was my plan last yr. Will see.

Tadi siang, kami ramai2 tolong kak imah n abg bob angkat barang masuk kargo. Alhamdullillah, sbb ramai yg dtg tolong, sekejap jer proses mengangkat barang nye.

Surah An-Nisa' ayat 85: Barangsiapa memberi pertolongan dengan pertolongan yg baik, nescaya dia akan memperoleh bahagian dari pahalanya. Dan barangsiapa memberi pertolongan dengan pertolongan yg buruk, nescaya dia akan memikul bahagian dari dosanya. Allah Maha Kuasa atas segala sesuatu

Tu lah yang suka sangat dok dundee nih, semua org cam close sgt2. semua org baek2, suke tolong org...Satu lagi family da nak meninggalkan dundee. sob..sob...Ape nak buat, setiap pertemuan ade perpisahan...patah tumbuh hilang berganti ..cewah..hehe Akan ada lagi org baru akan dtg sini tahun ni...so just go thru with it...

okies..adios...mau tido

Sekadar menulis...

2008-01-06T03:45:00.000-08:00

This entry is just an entry, nothing more than that....Not really worth it to read i guess..huhu..Today is the last day of holiday. So fast ek...Welcome back to school! Haha...Oh, no..i'll be back to normal life (sort of)..9-5 in hospital...Another outblock for me and most of my colleagues, not many ppl left in dundee for this month...yenni goin kilmarnock, irene goin kirkaldy, chet will be in bexxxx(i forgot whats the place called..hehe) n i'll be in stirling...it's only 4 months left before our exam meaning there's only approximately 6 months that we r all gonna be together here in dundee before we move to whereever we chose to work at...

So, what did i do during the hols?it's really a scotland holiday for me...didnt went out of scotland at all this time. Despite that, i wasnt really at my place...well, my friends know me very well bout this..langkah panjang bak kata kak maziah..

Erm...i'm kind of lack of idea right now...but i want to promote this movie..it's an old one, but not really old like black n white one, the best movie i ve watched among all during this hols..the title is Put It Forward...good plot n with values...do watch it, enjoy!

Tahun baru yang bakal tiba

2007-12-31T12:53:00.000-08:00

Tinggal lagi beberapa jam saja untuk tahun 2007 berakhir. Dengan kata lain new year bakal tiba mengikut gregorian calendar. Lagi 9 hari pulak, awal Muharram bakal menjelang mengikut kalendar hijrah, insyaAllah pada 9 January nanti. Sambutan tahun baru?countdown? perlukah semua tu? Jika diikut pada ajaran Islam pun, kita sambut tahun baru dengan membaca doa awal dan akhir tahun. Tak perlu lah nak pergi konsert, final countdown semua. Tuh semua bukan budaya kite, opps... bukan ajaran agama kita.

Firman Allah yang bermaksud
“Orang-orang Yahudi dan Nasrani tidak sekali-kali akan bersetuju atau suka kepadamu (wahai Muhammad) sehingga engkau menurut agama mereka (yang telah terpesong itu). Katakanlah (kepada mereka): “Sesungguhnya petunjuk Allah (agama Islam itulah petunjuk yang benar).” - (Surah al-Baqarah, ayat 120)

Ok, cukup cerita pasal sambutan tahun baru.

Cepat betul masa berlalu kan (ayat sama tiap2 tahun=P Umur da makin meningkat, da masuk 24 la kalo ikut tahun..huhu..da makin tue. Apa azam tahun baru? soalan yg biasa kite dgr tiap2 tahun...sebenarnya, saya sendiri tak pasti azam 2007 da tercapai ke belum..erm...tahla..tapi saya percaya yg kita perlu punya azam, tak kesah la nak perbaharui tiap2 tahun ker, tiap 5 tahun ker, tiap 10 tahun ker...tapi dengan azam, ia akan mendorong kita untuk mendapatkan sesuatu. Dan kalo boleh, jangan la azam asyik ke arah duniawi jer( nih utk diri sdiri gak nih) biarlah ke arah pengisian rohani dan keagamaan jugak .
p/s-saje nak selit kat sini, untuk adik yang nak exam, akak doakan adik dpt capai azam 2007 adik setelah berjaya menginsafkan diri...alhamdullillah

Nih doa akhir dan awal tahun.Nanti kita sama2 baca 1 muharram ni ek. Doa akhir tahun dibaca 3 kali selepas solat asar/sebelum maghrib pada akhir zulhijjah manakala doa awal tahun dibaca 3 kali selepas maghrib pada malam 1 muharram.

okla..setakat nih dulu. Nak makan dan berehat kejap setelah penat berjalan...Baru jer sampai umah , saing ngan kak aisyah lak tuh..wallaulam...

Mihrab

2007-12-22T14:41:00.000-08:00

Salam 'alaik

Cerpen Mihrab yg saya copy dr berita harian semalam..saya kira perkara ni memang da jadi 'gejala' di masjid@surau di msia...jom amek iktibar bersama-sama. (Nak letak link, takut next month da tak available, so copy jer trus =)

IQAMAH dialunkan melalui pembesar suara. Saya lekas mengatur langkah menuju ke masjid. Apabila tiba, saya lihat jemaah sudah penuh dua saf. Saya berdiri di saf ketiga. Di kiri dan kanan sudah ada dua tiga orang lagi yang baru sampai dan sama-sama membentuk saf.

Saya rapat-rapatkan tumit dan bahu, betulkan saf sungguh-sungguh. Meyakini bahawa saf bukan pada lurusnya sahaja, tapi juga pada rapat dan akrabnya tubuh. Apa yang mengecewakan saya, jemaah masjid walau di mana-mana tidak suka merapatkan tubuh dan bahu bila berdiri dalam saf. Maka saf pun jadi bengkang-bengkok macam ular kena palu dan pada hari ini, seperti hari-hari sebelumnya, saya masih kecewa. Apabila saya rapatkan tubuh kepada makmum di sebelah kanan, dia menjauh sedikit dan jangan diharap pada makmum di sebelah kiri yang memang tidak mahu akrab sejak tadi. Saya kira, jika jemaah saf pertama dan kedua membetulkan saf sungguh-sungguh, merapatkan bahu dan tubuh, sudah tentu tidak akan wujud saf yang ketiga ini. Aduhai!

Saya ingin mengangkat takbir, tetapi terhenti apabila tersentak dengan makmum di sebelah kanan yang angkat takbir berulang-ulang dan tersekat-sekat pula.

"Allahhhh... Allahhhhhuuu... Akbar!!"

Sekali lagi.

"Allahhhh... Allahhhhhuuu... Akbar!"

Masih tak menjadi.

"Allahhhh... Allahhhhhuuu... Akbar!"

Saya jadi hangat. Lekas saya sabarkan hati kerana solat baru sahaja bermula. Namun, Allah mahu menguji sungguh-sungguh kesabaran saya apabila solat telah bermula dan dia membaca al-Fatihah dengan suara yang kuat. Malah siap berlagu pula dengan kepala tergeleng-geleng. Yang paling menjuakkan tidak puas hati, dia masih begitu, mengulang-ulang ayat beberapa kali. Saya seperti ingin berkata kepadanya waktu itu juga � was-was itu datangnya daripada syaitan!

Semasa solat saya cuba hadirkan hati buat menggapai khusyuk. Tetapi acap kali konsentrasi saya terganggu oleh makmum di sebelah kanan.

Seusai memberi salam dan berzikir, saya bingkas dan menunaikan solat sunat selepas maghrib disusuli solat sunat hajat. Apabila selesai, saya bingkas dan ingin mencapai mashaf, tetapi benak pantas teringatkan pesanan Imam al-Ghazali tentang salah satu daripada hak solat berjemaah. Pesanan itu beragaman dan mengapung di benak. Saya membatalkan hasrat mengambil mashaf. Lantas tercari-cari makmum di sebelah kanan saya tadi. Dia kelihatan sedang duduk bersila di saf yang ketiga, menghadap mihrab. Saya menghampiri dan duduk di sebelahnya. Saya lihat wajahnya dari sisi, maka tahulah saya yang umurnya sudah renta. Saya rasa tak sedap hati. Bagaimana saya ingin menunaikan tanggungjawab dan hak ini? Saya tahu, saya perlu menunaikan hak untuk menegur dan memperingatkan jika melihat orang lain yang kurang betul atau melakukan kesalahan dalam solatnya. Berilah pengajaran dan pengetahuan. Imam al-Ghazali seperti berbisik rapat di telinga saya. Aduh, apakah tindakan saya ingin menegur sekarang ini, dalam waktu ini juga, adalah tindakan yang wajar? Apatah pula saya baru berpindah dua hari di kawasan ini dan mahu pula menegur seorang yang sudah agak renta, mungkin juga sudah bermastautin lama di sini. Apakah ini adalah tindakan yang waras? Apakah saya akan dituduh memandai-mandai dan tunjuk lagak? Pesanan Imam al-Ghazali mengapung lagi. Bergema dalam hati. Saya membulatkan nekad. Saya perlu mencegah. Saya tidak mahu bersubahat dan sama-sama menanggung dosa.

Orang tua itu kelihatan sedang khusyuk berdoa. Saya menunggu beberapa detik. Setelah melihat dia meraup kedua tangannya ke muka, saya memberi salam dengan nada yang paling lembut. Dia memandang saya dengan kening berkerut seraya menjawab salam. Saya tersenyum kepadanya seraya bertanya, "Pakcik apa khabar?" Dia masih kerut kening dengan wajah diserkup pelik. "Alhamdulillah." Suaranya mendatar. Saya tahu, waktu ini saya perlu berhati-hati mengeluarkan kata-kata. Saya perlu membeli kepercayaannya dahulu. Saya lantas memperkenalkan diri dan latar belakang, kemudian menghulurkan tangan. Kami berjabat. Dia saya kenali sebagai pakcik Muhsin. Setelah berbual dengannya beberapa minit, maka betullah telahan saya yang dia sudah lama tinggal di kawasan ini. Malah, rumahnya juga karib dengan masjid. Waktu ini, saya sudah mula merasakan keakraban, justeru saya kira kami sudah bersedia melanjutkan perbualan kepada mauduk utama. "Apa pendapat pakcik tentang saf jemaah di masjid ini?" Senyuman masih tekal di bibir saya. "Bagus." Dia mengangguk kepala sedikit. Saya tersenyum lagi. Kemudian memandang mihrab. Sebetulnya ingin memancing respons. "Kenapa?" Suaranya kedengaran serak-serak. "Saya kira kurang baik, pakcik. Walaupun baru dua hari di sini, saya lihat saf di sini masih bengkang-bengkok. Jemaah juga tidak mahu merapatkan bahu bila berdiri bersama." Saya kembali memandangnya dengan senyuman. Saya tahu, senyuman ada kuasa memikat, selain pahala bersedekah. "Itu tak jadi masalah." Dia bersuara acuh tak acuh. Saya terkedu sedikit. Senyuman saya mati. Di situ, keegoannya sudah mula terserlah. Saya memujuk hati dan membacakan sebuah hadis riwayat Muslim tentang saf, "Luruskan barisanmu, jangan bengkang-bengkok; kerana barisan yang bengkok nescaya akan menyebabkan hatimu berpecah belah." "Saf ni asas solat berjemaah pakcik, kesempurnaan solat berjemaah. Kalau kita sambil lewa, matlamat untuk mengakrabkan silaturrahim sesama Muslim itu tak akan tercapai. Hati kita akan bengkang-bengkok seperti saf itu. Penuh hasad, iri, takbur dan macam-macam lagi." Saya bersuara lembut dan moga-moga akan menusuk ke kalbunya. "Lagi?" Nada suaranya ditinggikan. Ya, kini saya sudah mula merasakan suatu gejolak. "Cara solat pakcik. Saya nasihatkan sebelum solat, pakcik bacalah surah an-Nas dan berta'awuzlah, mohon perlindungan daripada syaitan yang direjam. Was-was itu datangnya daripada syaitan dan kejahilan." Saya mengukir senyuman semanis madu. Orang tua itu tiba-tiba mendengus. "Apa? Aku jahil?" Matanya terbeliak memandang saya. Saya terkesiap. Sungguh, saya benar-benar tidak menjangka akan menerima reaksi sedemikian. Saya menarik nafas dalam-dalam. Pandangannya tidak saya balas dan kembali terlempar ke arah mihrab. Saya perlu mewujudkan jeda. "Aku cuba untuk khusyuk." Pakcik Muhsin tiba-tiba berkata perlahan setelah berlalu beberapa detik. Saya gesit memandangnya. Dia pula lekas mengalih pandang ke arah mihrab. Tidak mahu bertentang mata. Hati saya dijentik kagum. Rasa kasihan juga bercampur baur. Ya, sekarang inilah waktu yang paling sesuai untuk saya menyampaikan dan memberikan pedoman. "Izinkan saya memberikan formulanya, pakcik." Saya memandang sisi wajahnya. Dia langsung tidak memandang saya. Geleng pun tidak, angguk pun tidak. "Pakcik perlu hadirkan hati." Saya perasan kening pakcik Muhsin yang berkerut. "Maksudnya, hati itu mesti dikosongkan daripada segala sesuatu yang tidak ada sangkut paut dengan solat. Yang ada hanya Tuhan yang ingin kita sembah." Dia kelihatan mengangguk sedikit. Riaknya itu sudah cukup sebagai pendorong semangat saya berbicara. Saya senyum, kemudian membacakan firman Allah dalam surah Taha ayat 14, "�dan dirikanlah solat untuk mengingati Daku." Kemudian saya iringkan dengan surah al-A'raf ayat 205, "Dan janganlah engkau menjadi orang-orang yang lalai." "Kelekaan dan kelalaian itu adalah lawan kepada mengingati. Jika lalai dalam solat, bagaimanakah ingin dikatakan seseorang itu ingat kepada Allah? Solat bukan pada zahir sahaja, tapi juga pada batinnya." Saya bacakan pula ayat 43 daripada Surah an-Nisa', "�hingga kamu sedar dan mengetahui apa yang kamu katakan." "Walaupun ayat ini adalah sebagai dalil melarang orang-orang yang sedang mabuk mendirikan solat sebelum pengharaman arak secara mutlak, tetapi ayat ini juga boleh digunakan sebagai larangan bagi orang-orang yang leka, lalai dan orang-orang yang dihinggapi penyakit was-was."

Masjid itu tiba-tiba berdengung dengan bunyi motosikal. Saya berhenti seketika. Budak-budak rempit ini memang tidak pernah kenal ketololan mereka. Setelah bunyi itu reda, pakcik Muhsin memandang tunak wajah saya, saya tersenyum sepicing dan kembali menyambung. "Pakcik lihat sekarang, ramai orang yang mengerjakan solat atau mengaku menunaikan solat, tapi aurat terbuka sana, terbuka sini, senang kata, maksiat atau dosa tetap mereka lakukan. Sedangkan kita maklum, solat itu mencegah perkara yang keji dan mungkar. Berdasarkan sebuah hadis riwayat Tabrani, "Barang siapa yang solatnya tidak dapat mencegah dirinya dari perbuatan keji dan mungkar, maka orang itu tidaklah ditambah oleh Allah melainkan jauh, yakni jauh dari kebenaran." Bermakna, kalimah-kalimah dalam solat hanya meniti di bibir sahaja, tidak mengalir ke dalam hati. Atau mereka gagal menghadirkan hati." Saya menerangkan bersungguh-sungguh. "Orang yang gagal menghadirkan hati ni seperti orang yang mengigau, pakcik." Saya sengaja tidak memandang kepada pakcik Muhsin. Pandangan saya jatuh ke arah mihrab yang terbentang sejadah imam itu, tapi minda dan hati jauh berkelintar. "Mengigau?" Pakcik Muhsin yang baru saya kenali itu menyoal. Daripada bunyi nadanya saya tahu dia sedang kepelikan. Pesanan Imam al-Ghazali beragaman dalam benak saya. "Ya pakcik. Orang yang lalai ini seperti orang yang mengigau dalam tidur. Apakah orang yang berkata-kata dalam tidur dikira sebagai ucapannya sendiri atau igauan semata-mata? Adakah kata-kata 'pakcik sudah pergi ke London' semasa dalam tidur, orang akan percaya dan terima?" Pada perkataan London itu saya menyebutnya menggunakan ejaan Melayu seraya terkerisin. Saya membetulkan sila. Pakcik Muhsin menunggu dengan mata terkejip-kejip. "Jadi, solat kita semasa lalai, segala ayat-ayat dalam solat kita lafazkan sedangkan hati kita alpa, tidak jaga dan tidak hadirkan hati, adalah seperti orang yang mengigau, tidak tahu apa yang diucapkan, tidak sedar dan apakah solat kita akan diterima Tuhan?" Saya kembali memandangnya.

Namun, saya sangkakan panas hingga ke petang, rupanya hujan di tengah hari. Pakcik Muhsin bangun tiba-tiba dan memandang saya sepicing sebelum berlalu ke arah mihrab. Ada tiga orang jemaah di saf yang pertama menghadap mihrab, yang saya rasakan orang-orang kuat masjid. Hati saya diterpa bermacam rasa. Walang, bimbang dan gentar bercampur baur. Saya menghela nafas dan lekas beristighfar. Meyakinkan hati, bahawa kemenangan itu adalah untuk orang-orang yang benar. Saya teringat firman Allah dalam surah al-A'raf ayat 165, "Maka tatkala mereka melupakan (tidak menghiraukan) apa yang diperingatkan kepada mereka, Kami selamatkan orang-orang yang melarang daripada perbuatan jahat itu dan Kami timpakan orang-orang zalim dengan azab seksa yang amat berat, disebabkan mereka berlaku fasik." Hati saya hanya mampu mendoakan agar pakcik Muhsin tidak termasuk di kalangan golongan yang disebut Allah dalam ayat ini. Golongan yang tidak menghiraukan, tidak mempedulikan apabila datang peringatan kepada mereka. Saya melihat jam, waktu masih awal. Masih ada masa lebih kurang tiga puluh minit sebelum masuk fardu Isyak. Saya lekas bingkas dan mengambil mashaf, kemudian beriktikaf semula di tempat yang sama. Namun, belum pun sempat saya membuka mashaf, ada orang memegang tangan saya. Saya terkedu apabila melihat pakcik Muhsin berada di sisi saya dan meminta saya bangun. "Bangunlah. Pakcik sudah cadangkan pada imam dan jawatankuasa untuk membenarkan anak memberikan tazkirah. Mereka setuju." Saya bingkas dan menurutinya dalam pinga. "Adalah tidak adil jika anak menyampaikan ilmu untuk pakcik seorang saja. Apa yang ingin anak sampaikan penting dan perlu juga disampaikan kepada jemaah." Dia mengukir senyum. Senyuman yang julung-julung kalinya tentu! Serentak itu saya terdengar suara imam meminta semua jemaah menumpukan perhatian di hadapan. Saya terkesima. Subhanallah! Hati saya diterpa kagum tak henti-henti. Zikir dalam hati bertemali. Saya melangkah dan duduk di mihrab. Sebelum memulakan kuliah, saya memandang pakcik Muhsin yang duduk karib di sebelah kanan, kemudian ke arah jemaah di sekitar masjid. Jiwa saya ketika itu beragaman dengan diksi - ayuh, kita hadirkan hati!

Rujukan:

1) Ihya' Ulumuddin, Imam al-Ghazali.
2) Sahih Muslim, Imam Muslim.

Oleh: AMIZA Khusyri Yusof (Berita Harian 22 December 2007)

Ayat-ayat Cinta

2007-12-17T09:50:00.000-08:00

Bismillah...entry kali ni pasal buku bertajuk Ayat-ayat cinta hasil karya Habiburrahman El Shirazy. Mulanya saya taktau pun akan kewujudan buku ni, kawan yang cakap bila saya kata nak tengok movie nye. So kawan saya pun pinjamkan novel nih pada saya. Setakat ni, buku ni hanya ada dalam bahasa indonesia, tp ok jer, saya suka ayat2 dlm bahasa indonesia sebab bahasa nya lebih sopan gitu..hikhik..

Okay, sinopsis pasal buku nih. Mengisahkan tentang seorang penuntut Universiti Al-Azhar, Mesir, Fahri dan liku-liku kehidupan yang ditempuhinya bersama-sama dengan jiran-jirannya, yang baek (keluarga Maria) dan yang bermasalah (keluarga Noura). Pada masa yang sama, beliau mengakhiri zaman bujangnya bersama dengan Aisha dari Turki, lulusan universiti di Jerman. Klimaks cerita ini berlaku apabila Fahri ditahan dan dituduh memperkosa anak jirannya.

Biodata penulis buku ni-ringkasnya, beliau merupakan anak kelahiran Indonesia. Buku ini dikarang semasa beliau melanjutkan pelajaran ke Mesir, ini membuatkan penulis berjaya memberi gambaran kehidupan masyarakat mesir pada masa tersebut dengan baik. Beliau seringkali menggunakan nama samaran Kang Abik pada karya2nya. Karya-karya beliau biasanya ada diselitkan pengajaran dan moral2 dari segi Islam.

Saje jer taknak cite detail pasal novel nih, kena baca sendiri baru best. Dan yang paling saya suka pasal novel ni ialah isi kandungannya. Setiap chapter akan diselitkan dengan hadith-hadith dan firman-firman Allah, punya juga pengajaran yang baik terutamanya untuk remaja-remaja. Saya memang suggest semua org baca buku ni, especially kepada sape2 yang nak tengok movienye. Movie kalo tak salah akan kuar 19 hb dec ni di indonesia.

Ilahi, setiap kali,
bila kurenungkan kemurahanMu,
yang begitu sederhana mendalam
akupun tergugu
dan membulatkan sembahku padaMu
....adaptasi dari novel Ayat-ayat Cinta

Sape2 yg nak download virtual version for this novel, click here
Download ost ayat-ayat cinta kat sini
Ayat-ayat Cinta The movie Trailer. Bole jugak usha sini

Zulhijjah yang bakal menjelang tiba

2007-12-09T13:47:00.000-08:00

Salam alaik...

Rasanya semua pun da sedia maklum yang bulan Zulhijjah adalah bulan di mana umat Islam menunaikan rukun Islam yg ke 5. So kat sini, saya letak link ke blog2 sahabat yg da mula menulis tentang kelebihan bulan Zulhijjah. Bukan saya tak nak menulis sendiri, tapi masa yg ada tidak mengizinkan, fikiran lak tak leh nak buat ayat proper skang nih..huhu (pening membuat ayat2 utk case discussions yg kena submit before cuti nih)

Zulhijjah, Lakaran Sirah Kita Pada Harini -continue reading...

Amalan2 yg dianjurkan sepanjang bulan ini -continue reading...

Ciri-ciri peribadi Muslim

2007-12-07T03:26:00.000-08:00

Salam alaik...

Alhamdullillah dpt jugak join usrah mlm td wpun blk dr ninewells da lewat, Allah bagi jugak kekuatan nak pegi. Disebabkan penat sgt2 n pegi pon memang bwk diri jer, sy tak dpt nak grab semua input2 utk usrah kalini. Cuma apa yg sy ingt adalah ciri2 peribadi muslim yg dibentang oleh kakfa. Rasanya ramai pun penah dgr psl nih, tp tak salah kalo kite saling mengingatkan antara satu sama lain kan...

Hassan Al-Banna ada menggariskan 10 ciri2:

Sihat tubuh badan
Akhlak yang mantap
Berilmu( menunaikan tanggungjawab ilmu )
Berdikari( menunaikan tanggungjawab bekerja dan mencari pendapatan )
Aqidah yang sejahtera
Ibadah yang betul ( menunaikan tanggungjawab beribadah )
Bermujahadah melawan nafsu dirinya
Menjaga masa (prioritising)
Tersusun urusan-urusannya
Bermanfaat kepada orang lain

Walaupun nampak mcm mudah, tp belum tentu lagi kite berjaya nak capai ke 10 ciri2 kat atas nih. So jom kite try sama2 (nih nak mengingatkan diri sdiri jugak actually sbb lately ada problem dgn sifat malas)

Another program nak promote, heart & soul detox, poster kat atas tuh. Anjuran Glasgow University Muslim Students Association. Sy pun xtau lagi nak pegi ke tak ...huhu...

saje nak kongsi

2007-12-03T11:25:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum..

Kat sini sy postkan petikan email dr salah seorg sahabat yg baru kehilangan ayahanda tercinta. Saya belum minta kebenaran lagi ni, tp sy yakin beliau akan kata okay..hehe...saje nak kongsi dgn kwn2, terutamanya pengunjung tetap blog nih..honestly, menitis air mata sy bila baca email nih, semoga kita sama2 dpt ambil pengajaran...

Pergilah sudah sebahagian sumber inspirasi saya...
Abah dan umi adalah sumber inspirasi dan semangat saya. Abah tak pernah menghadiahkan saya hadiah2 yang mahal2 kalau berjaya, tapi abah bagi semangat dengan perbuatan.

Sejak saya kecil, saya tahu, setiap pagi, abah bangun bertahajud dan solat hajat untuk anak2nya. Saya tak dapat lupakan, masa saya kena chicken pox dan dapat cuti 2 minggu dr doktor, seminggu akhir saya nak juga pergi sekolah sebab takut ketinggalan, tapi susah nak duk asrama sebab takut jangkit org lain. Abah sanggup ulang alik dari Dungun, turun pukul 5 pagi, hantar saya ke sekolah di SMAASZA (KT), 2 jam lebih perjalanan, berhenti solat subuh di masjid dan sarapan tepi jalan. Tunggu saya habis kelas, dan ambil saya untuk bawa pulang sampai di rumah di Dungun waktu maghrib. Sepanjang perjalanan, abah akan mengulang2 surah2 al-Quran yang dihafalnya. Begitulah hari2.

Satu lagi, yang amat menyentuh hati saya ialah, semasa menghadiri hari kecemerlangan KISAS selepas SPM. Abah yang ketika itu masih uzur (baru lepas recover dari stroke), sanggup datang berpapah dengan umi dari Dungun naik bas untuk menghadiri majlis tersebut, semata2 untuk memberi semangat kepada saya. Ya Allah... manakan dapat saya lupakan semua itu... terima kasih banyak cikgu saadiah yang menumpangkan umi dan abah di bilik warden beliau dan pengetua, ust ahmad ismail yang menawarkan keizinan untuk saya balik kampung hantar umi dan abah balik lepas majlis tersebut.

Bila abah pergi... saya rasa sebahagian semangat saya hilang...
Tapi saya tahu, semangat itu tidak boleh kita gantungkan kepada manusia, kerana semua manusia akan pergi. Allahlah sumber inspirasi kita yang sebenar. Cuma saya sedar, saya telah kehilangan doa abah saya... Doa yang amat bererti buat saya...

Akhirnya, dengan penuh tawadhu', saya ucapkan terima kasih sekali lagi atas doa semua. doakan kami tabah. mudahan kita semua dapat menjejak ketabahan dan passion almarhum dalam beribadah pada usia sakitnya sehinggalah dijemput allah.

dan bagi yang masih punya ibu bapa hari ini, jagalah mereka dengan penuh kesabaran dan kasih sayang. terutama yang sakit darah tinggi, stroke, sakit tua dll, memang ujiannya lebih tinggi, kadang2 mungkin akan menyebabkan kita kecil hati, tapi usah sekali2 menganggap apa yang mereka buat adalah mereka yang nak buat, tapi itu memang lumrah orang yang sakit stroke, mereka jadi lebih panas baran, sensitif dll, itu adalah kesan penyakit yang mereka tanggung. dan tugas kita sebagai anak2 adalah menjaga mereka dengan penuh kesabaran dan kasih sayang, lemah lembut, sebagaimana mereka jaga kita waktu kecil kita yang entah berapa kali ganda ragamnya.

dan lagi, semoga Allah kurniakan kita anak2 yang sabar untuk menjaga kita juga insya allah, andai kita ditakdirkan kena penyakit yang sama di usia tua kita. justeru manfaatkanlah peluang yang Allah beri untuk kita berbakti kepada ibu bapa kita insya Allah. jangan sekali2 sengaja mengecilkan hati mereka.

satu lagi, andai kita ingin berdoa supaya panjang umur, baik buat diri kita, mahupun orang lain, jangan lupa doakan umur itu panjang dalam beribadah kepada allah insya Allah.

Allah Made Me Funny Tour

2007-11-27T14:21:00.000-08:00

Salam alaik...

2 and 1/2 weeks to go before the holiday and i'm feeling bad.Havent been feeling well lately, with annoying cough for almost 2 weeks now, on & off cold and fever. Probably due to the weather changed.Terrible...

First week in ward 10 was fine, got to do lots of jobs, the FY are fab! but this week is a bit asdfghh??? just dunno how to describe it..haha..

Anyway, I have just back from this show so called Allah Made Me Funny Tour. I would say it was good. Basically they are muslims comedians from the United States. They are now in the UK this month. Just to promote their show. Go to this website http://www.ammftour.com/.It's going to be in edinburgh tomorrow. Come and join them!

Reasons for dating a doctor??

2007-11-21T14:03:00.000-08:00

I was looking thoroughly at friendster bulletin and found this joke. It sounds funny to me.

1. They have magic tool
(stethoscope )

2. They can give you the gift
of "missing them" because they are
always at work

3. They can give you a free medical
consultat ion (everyone's favourite)

4. You save yourself the embarrassment
of going to a doctor with an
infection!!(ye ah...saves time and money
too!)
5 . They are smart!!(Not really...we
work hard)

6. They know their anatomy well (know
what works and where)..hmm, sounds
very interesting...right?

7. They are well trained to listen.
(yeah, even if we dont want to know)

8. They know how you feel, or at least
pretends to!!

9. They always have a strange new
story to tell.(but you might find it
boring..) They offer you a tissue when you
feel like crying (hehe...yeah...becau se
we dont know what to do)

Lama tak update...

2007-11-21T12:59:00.000-08:00

bismillah....da lama tak update rasanye blog nih.....tadi tgh nak upload fotopage tp taktau apsal tak bole lak, so teringat nak update blog, tp takde idea plak. cite pasal life skarang jer lah.sekarang da masuk winter yg btol2 nye...kat dundee asyik hujan jer memanjang. Susah nak nampak matahari, lagi plak skarang nih saya tgh shadowing kat surgical ward, pkol 8 da masuk, pkol 5 baru balik...time kuar n balik umah da gelap, rasa cam hidup dlm kegelapan..hahaha...harini half day, akhirnya dpt gak saya bukak langsir bilik tuh tgk luar ...

tghari tadi baru lepas call parents. diorg kat kelana jaya tadi, nak bertolak malam ni.smoga diorg selamat pegi selamat balik..huhu..sedih ler plak

tadi gi main badminton dgn kwn2 kat sport centre...fuh..lega rasa, da lama tak stretch muscles nih..ada gak esok tgn terketar2, takleh plak nak amek blood sbb da lama tak main..hahaha. Tinggal 3 weeks jer lagi before winter break, cepat btol masa berlalu. setakat nih, saya blom ade lagi plan utk cuti, tp yg penting skali, nak gi main ski this yr, akan ku angkut beramai2 org2 dundee yg ada..muahaha

tuh jer la dulu...

yang menanti hari esok yang bakal sibuk...

upin dan ipin

2007-11-05T05:08:00.000-08:00

da lama nak letak nih, tapi asyik lupa jer...sape yg blom penah tgk, bole la tgk, enjoy!

fresher's camp scotland 2007

2007-11-04T16:24:00.000-08:00

Salam alaik...

Alhamdullillah dpt jugak sy join fc di isle of skye yg baru jer abes siang tadi. 2minggu di Tarland cukup utk sy katakan jiwa ni kosong, hati ni da gelap, pekat agaknya. Sunyi btol, takde usrah, takde kwn2 nak marahkan kedegilan sy nih..erm...terima kaseh pd kakfa yg bersusah payah terutamanya pd 'driver' yg amek sy kat sana...

Disebabkan da lewat, dan esok pon sy nak kena bertolak awal ke sana...which is in 5 hours from now (mampukah nak bgn awal nih selepas 3 mlm tido lmbt =?) so taknak tulih panjang2, cukup sekadar pengisian dan dapatan yg sy peroleh dr camp tersebut insyaAllah

as usual, sptmana dlm post2 sblom ini, ingatlah..ape jua yg kite nak buat, mulakan dgn niat yg btol...lillah hita'ala
jangan fikir duniawi semata-mata, ingat pada akhirat sama kerna di situ nanti akhirnya kita
ilmu boleh dicari di mana2, yg mustahaknya, bagaimana kita nak gunakannya utk kebaikan, bukan sj bg diri sdiri, tp jua utk masyarakat...

wallahulam

My Life in Tarland

2007-11-01T08:54:00.000-07:00

Khamis 25/10/07

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Harini hari ke-4 saya di tarland. Nak cerita sikit pasal tempat nih. It’s actually a small village in the county of aberdeenshire, located to the west of Aberdeen. The population is only around 800 people. It is so small in which almost each of them knows everyone else. The best part is there is no crime committed in this village as it too small, so the criminals can be easily caught by the villagers. No one dare to commit any crime.

Let me write something bout my journey here. Last Monday, I took a bus to Aberdeen bus station from Dundee. I arrived in Aberdeen around quarter to 3. The earliest bus to tarland at that time was at quarter pass 4. I know I was early, and at that time, I was too boring, dunno what to do. It was cold as well and I was freezing. The most thing that I hate about it was everyone around me were smoking! Gosh!! I can’t stand smell and smoke of cigarettes. Luckily I found a shed to rest, which is at the counter area, a non smoking area too! The bus was punctual. It was a big bus, erm…look like a coach for me. With my big baggage (bag balik msia) I tried to carry it onto the bus, lucky me there is few helpful people around there…hehe..’Where are u going?’ ‘Tarland please’ ‘oo..is it the village of Tralnad?’ ‘yeah, that’s it? Dalam hati waktu tuh..wah, village of Tarland?kampung sgt kah tpt nih? There were less than 15 people got into the bus in Aberdeen, and after we reached Westhill, which is only a quarter of the bus journey, there were only me and another girl left. Having said that, I’m the last one to leave the bus..haha..nak menunjukkan betapa pedalamannya Tarland nih and I took me bout 2 hours. Despite all that, there are lots to see during the journey. It is a rural area having considered that there are lots of cows, sheeps and lambs. And then there is one type of tree..byk sgt all along the journey..skali pandang, teringat cam pokok getah kat highway utara selatan tuh…anyway, Alhamdullillah, I arrived safely at the Commercial Hotel….

And now about the surgery. It’s quite a small one. During my 1st week of attachment, there wasn’t that many patients but I do take histories and even gave flu vac to 7 patients.haha…my 1st time doing 7 in a row. And the GP and his staffs were all friendly. On the 1st day, I had lunch in my GP’s place and for the 1st time, I did apple picking..muahaha…at last, I have done it! Cos kat umah die ade pokok epal…syok abes!

Da mengantuk sgt da nih…to be continued………

Sabtu 27th October 2007

What did I do today? It was a boring weekend really. Seriously! I went for a walk around the village, climb up the hill to the stone circle and obviously took lots of photos…besides that, I was on the phone for the whole morning, I think and watch the news and movies. At least I got to know that tomorrow we are changing the clock back.

Isnin 29th October 2007, 10 pm

Seperti malam2 sebelum ini, kerja saya kalo tak tgk tv, tgk movie/drama…paling rajin pun, belek2 audit or buat revision sket. Sambil2 dok buat audit nyer intro, ternampak kat tv satu cite nih..tajuk die ‘how to move forward in africa’. Rancangan ni ala-ala majalah 3 la kalo kat msia. Citer pasal corruption kat Africa yang menjadi punca utama Negara nih tak maju sampai sekarang. Bayangkanlah, nak kerja pon kena bayar@rasuah..tak pelik ke tuh? Host rancangan tuh try nak join penduduk setempa yg pegi mencari kerja sebagai buruh pada siang hari. Utk masuk ke tempat kerja tersebut, setiap org kena bayar dlm 300 schilling (matawang diorg). Tuh blom tentu dpt kerja lagi tuh..pastu mandor akan pilih certain number of people utk kerja pada hari tersebut. Satu lagi yg host tuh cuba buat is nak bina pondok utk die duduk. Baru tak sampai sejam diorg bina pondok, ade sorg perempuan dtg ckp die masuk tanah die nih..kalo taknak die report kat chief officer, kena bayar die 4000. Host nip on diskus2, setuju 2000. Pastu dtg pulak chief officer, ckp kena byr die 2000, kalo tak die report kat ketua die, nanti kena roboh pondok tuh.kalo bayar, die akan settle semua dgn ketua die. Lepas discuss, bagila die 1000. Tak lama lepas tuh dtg lak sorg lagi mengaku org kerajaan bahagian tanah mintak lagi 2000. Ya Allah, mcmana la org2 kat situ nak hidup kalo semua nye kena bayar org lain..dahtuh org yg dibayar tuh janji mcm2, tp at last masuk poket diorg sdiri gak. Cerita pemandu teksi yg kena merasuah polis kalo nk amek penumpang wpon diorg bukan langgar rules jalanraya. Kalo tak diorg kena masuk lokap. Ish..ish..camna nak carik makan camni?

That’s all for now…wslm

Tarland, here I come!!

2007-10-21T11:30:00.000-07:00

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Penyayang lagi Maha Mengasihani

Rasanya lepas ni, mungkin sebulan baru saya akan update blog ni..sebabnya? saya kena posting general practitioner kat sebuah kampung bernama Tarland di Aberdeenshire...erm..jaraknya, dalam 3 jam perjalanan kalo naik public transport dr umah saya di Dundee, and itupun kena naik 3 bas sebelum sampai..dan yang paling men'stress'kan saya adalah, takde bus ke situ pada hari ahad...wa...........nampaknya sebulan la saya kat situ nanti, berkemungkinan besar tanpa internet, d only jalan hubungan luar ialah telefon..(harap2 network orange ade line la nanti..huhu)

Selain daripada stress sebab kena posting jauh sgt, satu lagi bende yg menyababkan saya stress is nak apply foundation job nih...waduh...tensi2...sebabnya..ramai yg suggest sruh kuar dr dundee..'kuarla, tgk dunia luar, pegi la england tuh ha...jgn dok kat scotland nih da', bak kata kak lin...ish, kak lin nih..kalo ikutkan hati memang nak jer dok kat scotland nih, lebih specific kat dundee...tp btol jugak, ayah pon sruh pegi tpt yg ramai sket org islam, malaysian, senang nak carik makan katanya..mak plak, carik tpt yg dkt dgn airport..senang nak balik..hahaha...adik lagi best..dok jer kat dundee tuh..kan senang, semua da ade, umah pon takyah cari da...argh..tgh 50/50 lagi ni..up to now..kalo nak apply england, area yg tgh diconsider adalah manchester...ni baru pikir pasal tpt mane nak apply, blom lagi nak menjawab soalan2 mtas tuh..lagila pening..ish2...

Cukupla pasal stress...kite cite sket pasal bende yg best lak..Tadi siang, ada majlis hari raya komuniti melayu dundee...tetamu jemputan, ustaz elfino dari msd (yg mengajar allughatul arabiyah kat ikim dulu tuh) byk yg ustaz elfino ckp tadi yg bole diambil pengajaran...salah satu daripada nya pasal menerima jemputan...camne ek die ckp tadi..sebolehnya hadirilah jemputan kerana jemputan itu tandanya kita dihargai, lebih kurang camtuh la...pastu pasal menyambut kedatangan ramadan, mungkin ramai yg tak sedar, tapi kalo kite recall balik, betul jugak kata ustaz tadi...kalo ramadan nak datang je..ape reaksi yg selalu kite dpt?...eh, da ramadan ke, apsal cepat sgt nih?...takpon, da nak posa, posa jer la....alangkah baeknya kalo kita sambut ramadan dengan hati yg gembira, sebagaimana repson kebanyakan kita bila syawal menjelang...selepas ucapan dari penghulu dan ustaz elfino tadi, acara makan pon dimulakan...banyak betul makanan tadi...terima kasih la pada warga2 dundee yg sememangnya pandai memasak..(ni yg buatkan saya nak dok dundee niih..hehe)..kalo ikutkan, ade game win, lose or draw, tp sebab da terlambat start, so tak smepat..time tutp majlis tadi pon, semua cam kelam kabut jer...apa pon, Alhamdullillah hampir semua org datang...sekurang2 nya, kalo tahun n i tahun last saya kat dundee pon berbaloi la sbb dpt beraya beramai2..haha..

Rasanya tu jer celoteh utk post kali ini...tak sabar2 dah nak gi Tarland ni..beg pon sama besar cam beg nak balik msia..hahaha...kata org , tempat tuh cantek...nanti saya amek gambar byk2 letak kat fotopage...okla...wassalam

Pelik??

2007-10-19T11:10:00.000-07:00

Eh Iftida, tak g memane ker? Pelik jer awak dok umah...Dalam minggu ni, tah da berapa org tanya soalan yg sama, dah tak larat da nak jawab. Minggu ni, saya cuti, reading week...walaupon namanya reading week, satu buku pon tak tersentuh lagi nih..hehe...btol2 saya gunakan cuti nih utk relax, macam taun lepas, saya turun soton & london, tuh yang this yr, ramai yg pelik saya tak g mana2...maklumla, org slalu ckp saya nih kaki jalan..haha...ada beberapa sbb saya choose nak stay kat umah je cuti kalini...1-next block saya kena outblock, rural GP,jauh nun ke utara, mungkin jugak tak blk dundee sebulan 2-nak save budjet, cuti summer aritu da over budjet 3-landlord nak dtg refurbish bathroom, sehari plumber dtg, sehari painter dtg, kalo tak de org kat umah, camne nak buat tuh? Alhamdullillah, da siap pon, rasa bathroom cam kat hotel..hahaha

Cukup satu paragraph cite pasal pelik...sedar tak sedar, da sminggu dah kite di bulan Syawal..cepat btol masa berlalu...rindu dgn Ramadan, rindu nak smbhyg teraweh..baru sehari dua raya aritu, da rasa mcm kembali ke dunia lama.Asyik berkejar sana sini, tak sempat nak tadarus ramai2, nak bangun qiam pon da liat, solat pon kdg2 nak akhir2 waktu... aduh2...astagfirullah...rasa nak patah balik ke ramadan aritu...anyway, syawal ni pon kita bole gak kejar pahala..antaranya dengan puasa sunat 6.

Sabda Rasulullah saw "Sesiapa berpuasa Ramadhan, kemudian diiringi dengan puasa (sunnat) enam hari dalam bulan Syawal adalah seperti puasa selama setahun." (Hadis Riwayat Muslim)"

Apa lagi, marilah kita sama2 mengejar puasa 6 Syawal ni, bagi muslimah, bole jugak berpuasa qada' sekali (mengikut beberapa pendapat). Ada sesetengah org selalu memberi alasan, ala..tak sempat la..byk sgt open house, kenduri pon time nih la diorg nak buat...erm...InsyaAllah, kata pepatah melayu, kalo hendak seribu daya, kalo tak nak tuh, seribu lah dalihnya kan.Tak perlu pon dibuat berturut2, pilih aja mana2 6 hari dari 30 hari bulan syawal, sememangnya la disunatkan untuk berbuat demikian, tapi kalo tak sempat pon, tak apa, asalkan buat aja, dan jangan lupa, niat tuh biar btol. Semoga mendapat keredhaan dariNya. Ameen

Lori garam tumpah depan rumah

2007-10-14T05:09:00.000-07:00

Di sebuah kampung, terdapat 2 orang gadis sedang sibuk memasak di dapur untuk persiapan hari raya yang bakal menjelang tiba. Masing2 sibuk memasak pelbagai juadah untuk tetamu yang akan berkunjung.Pada masa itu, di atas dapur terdapat rendang dan ayam masak merah yang masih dalam proses untuk masak. Si kakak pon menyuruh adiknya meletakkan sedikit garam ke dalam kedu-dua masakan tersebut. Si adik pon buatlah apa yg disuruh dek kakak tadi. Selepas itu, die pon cuba la rasa kuah ayam tersebut. 'Ya Allah, masinnye, camna nak buat ni?' , tanya si adik. 'Tambah la gula sikit, mungkin ok kot', jawab si kakak...Adik pon menambah la gula lagi, dan kemudian cuba rasa skali lagi kuah ayam tersebut..'eh, apsal makin masin lak ni?da byk da gula tambah tadi rasanya"kata si adik lagi.Si kakak yg mencuba rasa kuah tersebut bersetuju dengan si adik...'erm, tambah gula skali lagi kot, harap2 okla', jawab si kakak. Sebelum sempat si adik menambah satu sudu serbuk yg dianggap gula tadi, si kakak terus menjerit dan ketawa berdekah2..'tu GARAM la!!!'...

sekian saja cerita yg diadaptasikan dari kisah benar minggu ini...tiada kena mengena dengan yang masih hidup atau yang telah meninggal dunia.

Pangajaran:

jangan buat kerja sambil lewa
sebelum buat sesuatu, belajar dan cuba adaptasi dengan suasana sekitar dulu
kalo tak tahu, jangan malu bertanya
kalo hati kata lain, cuba fikirkan kembali, sebab selalunye hati tuh bercakap benar, cuma kita jer yang tak dapat instinct tuh

semoga kita dapat ambil pengajaran dari kisah di atas..

gambar-gambar raya org dundee ada di http://iftida.fotopages.com

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

apa ada dengan cinta?

2007-10-10T14:25:00.000-07:00

Baru-baru ni, saya sempat join iftar jamaie anjuran DUIS bersama sister2 yg lain...seronok berkawan dengan diorg ni..at least takdela jumpa muka melayu jer kan..ehehe...masa sedang makan2 tuh, saya duduk dengan sorg sister ni, batch saya jugak dlm kelas...aritu before start 5th year, kami kena buat elective, dan dia ni pegi msia utk elective, buat kat hkl dengan 2 org lagi shabat, sorg from london, sorg lagi brunei, n dia ni lak dr glasgow...so tgh borak2 tuh....lebey kurg camni la ek perbualan kitorg...

saya: so, how was ur elective?
xxxx: oh...it was good, really good...quite like it tho hkl is too busy
saya: what do u think about msia?do u like it?
xxxx: yea..yea...it's a nice country, people seems to be very nice as well...erm...can i ask u, is it
a norm in msia that a boy n a girl go out together? is it like a culture?
yyyy: is it accepted in ur country? i mean...cos we dun do that here...it's just a bit weird (kawan lagi sorg menyampuk)
saya: (masa tuh saya trus pandang flatmate saya kat sbelah, dlm ati, ish..camne nak jwb dgn
baek ni, rasa cam soalan exam lak..hahaha)

dialog seterusnye, maybe korg bole reka sdiri la kot ek..

bila dia da tanya camtu, baru la saya teringat balik da setahun lebih saya tak nampak budaya camtu..erm, lebih specific, budaya couple...memang perasan la, kat sini takde org islam yang keluar berdua2 bukan mahram...msian kat dundee ni pun takde..(baek budak2 kat dundee nih..hahaha) 4 tahun saya blaja kat kl, memang budaya ni makin melampau2...mmg macam da jadi culture...sampaikan ibu bapa ada yg takut kalo anak2 takde boyfren atau girlfren..ish...ape la nak jadi...sampaikan org luar yg dtg negara kita tak sampai sebulan pon perasan bende ni...nampak sgt la da berleluasa..

rasanya da byk kali di mana2 aja topik ni dibincangkan...takyah la nak citer panjang2 lagi...rasanya semua org da besar, bole pikir sdiri

saya ada terbaca artikel dkt blog kwn...tajuk nye pencinta kuda...

Pada zaman dahulu, dalam sebuah daerah, dalam sebuah negeri, ada seorang penggemar kuda yang terkenal. Semua kuda-kuda yang dibelanya adalah dari baka yang baik belaka.

Dalam banyak-banyak kuda yang dipeliharanya, ada seekor kuda yang paling disayanginya.

Kuda itu cuma diberi makan rumput-rumput segar terpilih yang dicerut di lembah-lembah gunung yang subur yang dihidang dalam bekas yang indah-indah. Dan diberi minum pula dari mata air yang manis rasanya.

Setiap kali kuda itu berak, dia akan menadah tahi kuda itu. Dan kencing kuda itu pun ditadah dalam bekas khas (dalam versi asal disebut cengkerang tiram yang besar) sebelum dibuang.

Pada suatu hari, seekor lalat telah hinggap di atas punggung kuda itu. Oleh kerana takut kudanya rasa terganggu, penggemar kuda itu ingin menghalau lalat itu. Dia menampar lalat yang hinggap pada punggung kuda itu.

Kuda yang amat disayanginya itu pun terkejut. Lantas menendang penggemar kuda itu hingga mati.

Moral:
Kadang kala kita sangat mencintai sesuatu atau seseorang tapi apalah gunanya mencinta kalau cinta kita itu sering tidak difahami. Maka itu, carilah cinta sejati pada malam-malam akhir yang masih tidak banyak berbaki ini.

dipetik dari: http://ulamaummah.blogspot.com

sekian saja,
Iftida

Marah!!!

2007-10-03T12:04:00.000-07:00

Geram nye, bengangnye...astaqfirullah..tibe2 arini darah saya naik...da lama tak marah, tapi entah kenapa arini tiba2 je saya naik angin...astaqfirullah...istigfar banyak2...skali saya cuba mengawal rasa marah saya...saya ni jarang nak marah2 tak tentu pasal, dan sememangnyalah saya sgt tak suka dimarahi tak tentu pasal jugak...seperti sebelum2 ni, kalo saya marah je, pasti lepas tuh akan menitis la air mata..hehe...bila da marah, akan rasa bersalah la pulak...tambah2 bulan ramadan ni...cepat2 mintak maaf pada org yg kena marah tuh...mmg diakui susah sgt rasanya nak keluarkan kata2 mintak maaf atau sori tuh, tapi paksa jugak diri ni cakap...lepas da mintak maaf, baru la rasa lega sikit tapi masih rasa susah nak berdepan dgn org tersebut...tapi takpe, esok okla kot harap2 nye...maybe org tuh ok jer...tapi saya ni...(bertengkar dlm hati sdiri..huhu)

Macamana nak kawal sifat marah ye?

Rasullullah ada ajarkan beberapa cara nak mengawal sifat marah. antaranya:

Mengucapkan Ta’awudz (A’udzu billahi minasy syaithoonir rajeem - Aku berlindung kepada Allah daripada syaitan yang terkutuk). Ini adalah kerana perasaan marah itu timbul dari hasutan syaitan.
Diam atau tidak berbicara.
Jika semasa timbul perasaan marah itu seseorang itu sedang berdiri maka hendaklah dia duduk. Jika tidak reda juga maka hendaklah dia baring.
Berwuduk kerana air wuduk itu dapat menenangkan jiwa yang sedang marah

Disebabkan buruknya akibat sifat marah yang melulu ini maka Rasulullah s.a.w. amat menitikberatkan agar perasaan itu dikawal dengan baik. Apabila seorang sahabat meminta nasihat daripada Baginda s.a.w, lantas Baginda bersabda: Jangan marah. Kemudian sahabat tersebut mengulangi permintaannya untuk mendapatkan nasihat. Sekali lagi baginda menjawab: Jangan marah. (Sahih al-Bukhari, hadis no: 6116).

Allah juga memuji mereka yang dapat mengawal perasaan marah melalui firman-Nya dalam surah Ali-Imran: 133-134)

plagiarised from article 'kawal marah sifat terpuji' by MOHD. YAAKUB MOHD. YUNUS

More about Ramadan

2007-09-28T05:51:00.000-07:00

Last night I went for iftar organised by DUIS, that's the dundee university islamic society. Before the iftar, we had a talk given by one of the brothers who talked about ramadan. Just to mention few things here...there are 3 levels of fasting which are 1) ordinary person fasting 2)VIP 3)VVIP. We can choose which level do we want to be. Just remember about this everytime we fast. Another thing he mentioned was that we are not fasting only from hunger and thirst. Always remember, we fast to fast our tongue, eyes, ears and other parts of body as well.

Here is an interesting article by Dr. Alhaqi Manta Dremmeh.

O ye who believe! Fasting is presribed to you as it was prescribed to those before you, that you may (learn) self restraint (taqwa). (Quran 2:183)

Muslim believe that the month of Ramadan is the holiest of the four holy months of the Islamic Lunarcalender and comes as the ninth month andthe fourth osthe five pillars of Islam. the month of Ramadan begins with the sighting of the new moon after which physically sound and healthy mature muslims will refrain from drinking, eating and any intimate contact between dwan and sunset. In addition to the physical aspects of Ramadan, it is a deeply spiritual exercise and development. It is the blessed month of compassion, forgiveness and freedom. During all months and in particular Ramadan, Muslims are taught to refrain from gossiping, lying, greed, slandering and denouncing someone behind their back. If anyone indulges in any of the above acts, all they will be attaining from their fast is hunger and thirst as in an authentic Hadith reported by the companion of the Prophet.

Apart from the medicinal benefits in detoxifying the body that some scholars associate with fasting inthis month, Ramadan fundamentally helps us develop spiritually and improve morally. Ramadan cleanses one from feelings of arrogance, egoism and jealousy. On the contrary, it enables one to reflect on the beauty of creation of the Almighty Allah SWT, His bounty and mercy upon us andimproves ones relations with others.

In essence, Ramadan inculcates in us patience, compassion and sense of sharing. It reminds us of the abject poverty that millions of people are under and the proactive role one should play in reducing poverty, illiteracy and inequities. Thus, Ramadan is one of spiritual journey, moral improvement and social responsibility.

Sadaqallah hul azim

Munchausen's Syndrome

2007-09-24T10:58:00.000-07:00

It is defined as factitious disorder, or mental illness, in which a person repeatedly acts as if he or she has a physical or mental disorder when, in truth, they have caused the symptoms. This was named for Baron von Munchausen, an 18^th century German officer who was known for embellishing the stories of his life and experiences—is the most severe type of factitious disorder.

Interesting..i thought this syndrome would never ever be diagnosed but today, I've seen a patient with this diagnosis. Before I continue, I better say sorry first to those non-medical people for again writing a medical post here...

So, this patient came in a wheelchair, with her husband I presume, telling the doctor that she couldn't swallow or take anything via her mouth. To cut the story short, she is here today to request an operation to reduce her gastro-oesophageal reflux! I have never seen an adult get this type of operation before, and I know those who get this must be very very very ill. This doctor turned down her request and she started to yell and say that she wanted a second opinion. She also do not want to see this doctor anymore. So the doctor happily discharge her from his clinic but this is not the end of story yet, when the doctor hand in to her the discharge form, which is instead towards her, he did it from her behind, she managed to take the form although she initially claimed that she is blind. FUNNY huh! . Later on, when we looked back at her previous records, she was being investigated for pseudo-seizures by the neurologist and have been changing GPs and hospital for number of times.

What am I going to say here is that these type of people should not be under NHS treatment. Orang2 di UK ni, diorg ni dapat benefit, macam zakat la jugak kalo kita nak kata dalam melayu, jadi ramai lah mereka ini yang berpura-pura sakit padahal tak pun, sihat walafiat je. Disebabkan diorg ni ada surat dari doktor sbb sakit2 tertentu, jadi mereka ni lebih rela pergi hospital setiap minggu walaupun duduk jauh sgt dari hospital daripada pergi bekerja. Sebabnya, diorg tau government akan bagi benefit yang banyak, cukup utk tampung hidup diorg malah siap boleh gi shopping lagi. Pelikkan ada jugak manusia camni.

Well, if we relate this back to Islam, sikap berpura-pura ini amalan syaitan. To be continued...

Alamak, da time utk berbuka la...

Selamat Datang Ramadan

2007-09-23T11:43:00.000-07:00

Poster Doors Open Day Dundee Mosque.
Dapat juga menyumbang tenaga as a tour guide pada hari tu

Sudah terlalu lama rasanya saya tak menulis...asyik copy paste dari orang lain punya blog aje...hehe...dalam pada kemalasan saya itu, sempat saya mem'browse' beberapa blog sahabat yang telah lama saya tak kunjungi..hasilnya, dari seorang ke seorang sahabat yang lain...dan Alhamdullillah...ia tak sia-sia. Banyak ilmu-ilmu yang saya peroleh hasil daripada menghadap laptop sepanjang hari. Akan saya letakkan link-link blog tersebut apabila saya mendapat keizinan daripada empunya blog, InsyaAllah.

Ermm...sedar tak sedar, da setahun saya berada di bumi Dundee ini...tahun ni saya dah pun bergelar final year medical student, syukur pada Allah. Rasanya berat betul beban apabila berjaya mencapai gelaran ini. Adik-adik junior akan mula bertanya itu ini, minta nasihat dsb. Consultant-consultant pula akan mula letak high expectation. Yang paling menakutkan apabila patient2 sendiri da mula percaya pada kita. Sudah mula terasa tanggungjawab yang akan dipikul bila menjejakkan kaki ke alam pekerjaan nanti. Seperti kata Dekan pada hari pertama introduction haritu, dalam masa tak sampai 10 bulan, awak akan bergelar doktor. Pada masa tuh nanti, tanggungjawab yang dipegang memang berat. Jadi, bersiap sedialah dari sekarang, dari segi fizikal, mental mahupun spiritual. you are the doctor, you are the leader, you are the teacher.Sebagai bakal doktor muslim, kita mesti sedar akan tanggungjawab kita...kita ini hanya sebagai perantara Nya, yang akan membantu berusaha melindungi nyawa manusia di semua peringkat dan dalam semua keadaan, berusaha sedaya upaya menyelamatkan mereka daripada maut, penyakit, kesakitan dan kebimbangan (dipetik daripada Ikrar Pengamal Perubatan Muslim). Rasanya da melalut pulak, objektif asalnya nak bercerita pasal niat =) Ok, berbalik pada topik asal...

Alhamdullillah...sudah hampir 11 hari kita melalui ramadan pada tahun ini. Tak sangka masa berjalan begitu pantas, sangatlah ia mencemburui kita. Marilah kita sama-sama muhasabah diri kita semula...fikir-fikirkan...apa yang sudah kita buat sepanjang sepuluh sebelas hari ramadan yang lepas...ada tak kita bersedekah? bagaimana dengan puasa kita, pangkat berapakah puasa kita agaknya?pangkat orang2 kebanyakan kah?yang puasanya hanya mendapat letih dan dahaga. Sudah berapa juzuk da agaknya quran tu kita baca?atau sudah berapa helaian kah baru kita selak? pernah tak kita bangun solat malam untuk qiamulail? bagaimana pula dengan teraweh kita pada tahun ini?

Tak kesah la berapa banyak pun ibadat yang kita buat, yang penting niat kita mestila dibetulkan...Jikalau kita refer pada hadis2 pun, kebanyakannya akan menyebut tentang pentingnya niat sebagai hadis pertama. Apa yang saya nak utarakan di sini adalah perihal niat sebenarnya...beberapa hari lalu, salah seorang sahabat saya complaint pasal susahnya da masuk clinical year ni...tambah pulak buat surgical blok, bulan puasa lak tuh..."pagi2 pkol lapan da masuk, petang pulak lepas pukul lima baru ward round habis....ruginya buat blok ni masa bulan puasa! tak sempat nak beribadat langsung" Pada saya, niat kita yang penting di sini...saya ckp pada sahabat saya ni, ingatla bila kita pergi belajar, jumpa patient, buat ward round, ambil darah patient, niatkan untuk ibadat. Kita da pun pilih untuk masuk bidang ni, nak tak nak kita harus teruskan (walaupun mungkin ada yang berpendapat masih ada masa utk berpatah balik) ingat lah, tak elok kita mengomel masa sekarang ni...belum lagi bekerja...nanti da kerja, ntah dapat cuti ntah tidak, ntah-ntah kena lak on call beberapa kali masa ramadan....mungkin ini praktis yang baik....yang penting betulkan niat kita....saya sedar ada jugak kawan-kawan saya yang mungkin rasa saya ni terlalu taksub pada pelajaran ...takde nak join program2 sangat...saya kalo org da cakap macam tuh, saya dengar je la..mungkin benar kata org, kita kena la jugak ambil iktibar dari apa yang org ckp...kita cuba buat yang terbaek, ye tak? tapi last sekali kita serahkan segalanya pada Allah (taknak komen byk sgt pasal ni)

Kesimpulan yang saya nak bawa di sini...walaupun kita tak sempat nak beribadat pada bulan ramadan kali ini,ingatlah, apabila kita buat sesuatu kerja itu, niatkannya sebagai ibadat..sememangnya, kalau ada masa lapang, penuhilah ia dengan bacaan Al-Quran dan seumpama dengannya...

Semoga Ramadan tahun ini akan lebih baik dari tahun sebelumnya...InsyaAllah

What is Atheism?

2007-09-23T11:12:00.000-07:00

This article is a copy from my friend, encik Jeghi. Link http://azrifickry.blogspot.com/

Few friends have been asking what is atheism. Defined by Wikepedia Atheism, as a philosophical view, is the position that either affirms the nonexistence of gods^[1] or rejects theism. In simpler words, they believe in nothing.

All of us, regardless of what religion you might embrace, have always been bombarded with questions ,
-who created us
-why do we live, grow up and eventually die?
-if God does exist, where is He?

We the Muslims believe in Allah the Almighty as the One and Only. 25% of the world population are Muslims. The rest, the emptiness in their restless hearts made them began to look for the answers for the above questions, which unfortunately had lead them to create God in thousands of forms. The rest here includes those those who do not believe in God, but still they believe in something though they never portray it. Some believe God presented in a human form, God has son and endless other forms which of course are ridiculous.As said by Dr Asri(Minda Mufti)

Hingga mereka yang mendakwa tidak mempercayai Tuhan dan bebas dari sebarang peraturan manusia pun, mereka tetap menjadi hamba nafsu dan pemikiran sesat yang akhirnya merobohkan nilai keinsanan mereka yang sebenar.

Islam, what differentiates it to other religions is Islam is a complete way of life. Comparatively, other religions they stress only/mostly the spiritual side of a human being. Therefore, we see them going to their so-called holy places at one time and the rest of the week they live as if they will never die, taking alchohol and practising free sex for instance. Islam is different, it is a system that covers from the very basic life chores up to the rules and laws of a country.

Yes, the non-Muslims might be laughing at us now. The Malay's saying ' cakap tak serupa bikin' is perhaps not far from being true. Islam as proven by history reached the top of the world when It was truly practiced by the Muslims. I'm urging my fellow Muslims, as stated in the Quran,

24. Maka apakah mereka tidak memperhatikan Al Quran ataukah hati mereka terkunci?

25. Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang kembali ke belakang (kepada kekafiran) sesudah petunjuk itu jelas bagi mereka, syaitan telah menjadikan mereka mudah (berbuat dosa) dan memanjangkan angan-angan mereka.

33. Hai orang-orang yang beriman, taatilah Allah dan taatilah Rasul dan janganlah kamu merusakkan (pahala) amal-amalmu. Surah Muhammad 24,25,33

to question where is God, why is the world unfair and why your loved ones die of cancer and others that deserve to die(subjective) live happily in this world is part of human nature. Islam has set the path, yet this path seems so blur to us because of our laziness in seeking it.

4. Katakanlah: "Terangkanlah kepadaku tentang apa yang kamu sembah selain Allah; perlihatkan kepada-Ku apakah yang telah mereka ciptakan dari bumi ini atau adakah mereka berserikat (dengan Allah) dalam (penciptaan) langit? Bawalah kepada-Ku Kitab yang sebelum (Al Quran) ini atau peninggalan dari pengetahuan (orang-orang dahulu), jika kamu adalah orang-orang yang benar" Al-Ahqaaf, ayat 4

On another heavy note, I would like a heavy penalty/punishment to be sentenced to the rapist of Nurin. A death sentence would be the preferred option to most of us(i guess). You are a sick animal! Even an animal would never do that!

Mari kita bersama-sama sedekahkan Al-Fatihah buat adik Nurin kita...Al-Fatihah

my 2nd post in aberdeen

2007-07-22T14:10:00.000-07:00

alhamdullillah...had a great weekend here wif new friends in aberdeen...and meet wif old old old frens jugak..wow...cant believe it, da lama sgt sgt sgt tak jumpe, dpt jumpe kwn tuisyen masa skolah rendah....btol la, small world kan....
di sebalik kemalasan n skiving last wk elective (to be honest, i dun even realise tat i'm actually a good skiver..haha) this wk, dgn semangat wajanya, nak pegi everyday, taknak skive da...insyaAllah..lagipon supervisor da balik..huhu...nak shadow fy1 la this coming week after the great weekend kan..
what did i do this weekend? saturday, pegi umah uncle n auntie...they r so so nice...n met wif aberdeen's people...pegi awal, tolong2 sket...da lama tak makan ramai2 camni...da ler makan kari salmon wif sambal belacan...ahh...da lama tak makan camni....
the next day...we went for strawberry picking...thanks to kak sarah yg drive..n semua2 la yg mengidam sgt including kak eta, huda n fazli..haha...lawak la diorg ni...pegi awal, punye la semangat, aleh2 tak bukak lagik...so pi la carboot dulu...tu pon hujan menitik2...then, went back to that place, nasib baek bukak...masing2 bukan main lagi bergambar sakan...my 2nd time picking strawberry here..last yr in carnoustie...best..thats why nak dtg lagik...the best part is when u can eat the strawberry fresh from the farm...manis sgt2...this is one of my present for not going back to msia this yr i guess...huhu..
opps...it already late...better go to pray n then sleep....eosk nak bgn awal...smangat baru nak gi ward esok nih..hahaha

first day in surgical paediatric royal aberdeen children hospital

2007-07-16T23:33:00.000-07:00

alhamdullillah..da start pon elective...it wasnt too bad here in RACH....esp in surg paeds...compared to ninewells, here is much more happening. as a first day today, i've seen lots of interesting cases...in the morning, was in the clinic wif my supervisor...kids wif recurrent UTI, recurrent balanitis, inguinal hernia...and oso they talked bout a baby boy who was delivered during the weekend whom they discovered to have anorectal malformation, so they brought him to theatre , operated on him and he was fine for a while but then he suddenly begin to desaturated overnight...but otherwise he was fine...they have tried everything to find out whats the cause but they failed...n the consultant then came out wif ONDINE'S CURSE. erm...cant believe it that IMU taught me that..haha....it is a syndrome of hypoventilention
look up here for more info-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ondine's_curse

in the afternoon, they have lunch time meeting bout significant event analysis...every jjunior doctor have to present one..it was interesting..there were 4 events altogether...1-a child came in wif burns..n the story from parents was inconsistent..so they thought it was NAI(non accidental injury), they admitted the child, but suddenly the child dissapeared from the ward...everything was hectic becos the junior doctor was new, n she didnt know what to do neither the middle grade staff..poor communication between the staffs resulted in missing of the child...but finally they managed to get back the child wif the help of social work, n it was found out that it was a neglect rather than NAI..so the lesson to learn is know how child protection act works n who u hv to contact n what to do in this situation..

2nd case was a general one...applies to all doctors...bad handwriting..common huh...to all doctor to be out there, watch ur handwriting kay!...tulis tuh biar org bole baca..especially drugs name...its patients safety..

3rd case bout alarm...to be honest, i myself dun even know how to differentiate emergency alarm, fire alarm, n whatever alarm thay hv...so obviously i need to learn bout that

and the last one was about a child who just have craniotomy done, then during the night, she had a swelling at the operation site...the concern nurse reported it to the on call doc , so the doc went to check this girl, n she cudnt find her notes, none at all...her obs however stable, so contact neurosurg team, ask the on call doc, n she wasnt sure bout it but she didnt want to admit it...initially, she was reluctant to contact her consultant, but finally she contacted him, n they came over...the lesson here...if u dunno sumthing, just admit it..we r dealing wif people's life...so dun compromise..

in the afternoon, i went to theatre...the 1st case was an emergency...a 5 months old boy wif melena...sounds weird isnt it? he had chicken pox at the same time..his vital signs is showing signs of shock, however the medical term wudnt able to put in any line, so they hv to bring him to theatre, n ask the surgeon to do it before he can hv endoscopy done..they put in 2 lines into his both saphenous veins (2 fingers breadth above and anterior to middle malleolus) n endoscope shows ulcer in stomach and oesophagitis probably due to chicken pox.

thats all for the 1st day..my 2nd case was nothing..bcos my supervisor is attending a conference, n there was nothing in the ward, theatre n clinic..so i skive the whole day..haha

exam dah abes

2007-07-12T08:21:00.000-07:00

Alhamdullillah, exam da abes. Harap2 tu lah penutup utk academic year ni. Setelah berpenat lelah belajar semua, sampai menangguhkan dulu hal2 lain, harap2 berbaloi la.
Sementara blom dapat result ni, plan da ade macam2 da...berjela2 list. tak tau ler sempat ke tak nak siapkan semua nye.
Bende2 yg nak buat sepanjang cuti ni:

kemas rumah sekemas2 nyer..hehe..
uruskan pasal telefon yg da berbulan rosak tp malas nak layan
kena pulangkan buku library yg bertan2 kat umah ni
kena contact kengkawan yg da lama janji nak contact tp tak penah contact
kena wish kengkawan yg nak kawen...tahniah to haly, nana, asma', hajar
kena sruh landlord dtg umah baiki sensor heater yg da lama tak btol
nak baca balik semua bende2 yg blajar masa usrah dulu, rasa diri ni da makin jauh dgn penciptaNya
nak start blk menghafal surah2
nak abeskan khatam house..hehe
nak tgk semua movie2 yg tertangguh sbb nak exam aritu
13 hb july zack datang, pegi glasgow and edinburgh
15 hb july pegi aberdeen start elective
3 hb ogos, pegi dubai, jumpa family...ni yg paling best skali
21hb ogos, pegi london, trauma conference
25 hb ogos, pegi paris dgn huda
28 hb ogos, sampai manchester, lepak umah huda kat preston
paling lewat, 1 sept balik dundee semula... by that time, aisyah da ade kat umah..yea..

rasa cam ade lagi, tapi tak teringat pulak buat masa ni...buat kwn2 yg skang ni tgh bercuti dkt msia, njoy la na...tolong makan2 kan makanan msia utk saya....rindu plak rasa, nyesal gak sbenarnye tak blk..hehe...nak buat camne, takde rezki...

Fakta baru yg menarik...erm...

2007-07-12T08:17:00.000-07:00

adaptasi berita harian 12 july2007

Lelaki tak berkahwin lebih ramai berbanding wanita

Oleh Halina Mohd Noor

Laporan bancian penduduk menunjukkan kadar kesuburan terutama bangsa Melayu menurun sejak 15 tahun lalu

BEBERAPA tahun lalu, masyarakat heboh memperkatakan mengenai satu kajian yang kononnya menunjukkan jumlah wanita tidak berkahwin melebihi jumlah lelaki. Sejak itu, isu mengenai wanita bujang itu hangat diperkatakan sama ada di kedai kopi mahupun ahli politik dan tidak kurang juga yang menjadikannya bahan jenaka.

Hakikatnya jumlah lelaki bujang terlajak yang belum mendirikan rumah tangga pada usia 30 hingga 44 tahun didapati lebih ramai berbanding wanita bujang pada lingkungan usia berkenaan di negara ini.

Berdasarkan laporan Bancian Kependudukan dan Perumahan 2000, mendapati bilangan lelaki dan wanita yang memilih untuk tidak berkahwin semakin meningkat sejak 1991 hingga 2000.

Perunding Lembaga Penduduk dan Pembangunan Keluarga Negara, Dr Abdul Majid Mat Salleh, berkata jumlah keseluruhan lelaki yang tidak pernah berkahwin pada 1991 adalah 39.2 peratus dan 39 peratus pada 2000.

Jumlah itu jauh lebih tinggi berbanding wanita yang tidak pernah berkahwin iaitu 30 peratus pada 1991 dan 30.9 peratus pada 2000.

“Lelaki dan wanita di negara ini semakin memilih untuk tidak berkahwin atau melambatkan perkahwinan. Jika diteliti, kebanyakan lelaki memilih usia agak lewat untuk mendirikan rumah tangga iaitu pada usia 29 hingga 30 tahun. Ini berbeza dengan wanita yang lazimnya menamatkan zaman bujang lebih awal iaitu pada usia 25 hingga 26 tahun,” katanya ketika membentangkan kertas kerja bertajuk Kependudukan di Malaysia: 50 Tahun Perubahan.

Ceramah beliau adalah sebahagian daripada pembentangan yang dibuat pada Persidangan Kependudukan Kebangsaan 2007: Jendela Demografik Bagi Pembangunan; Peluang dan Cabaran baru-baru ini di Hotel Renaissance, Kuala Lumpur.

Persidangan selama tiga hari itu yang dirasmikan Menteri Pembangunan Wanita, Keluarga dan Masyarakat (KPWKM), Datuk Seri Shahrizat Abdul Jalil anjuran Lembaga Penduduk dan Pembangunan Keluarga Negara (LPPKN).

Beliau berkata, faktor pendidikan yang semakin tinggi di kalangan lelaki dan wanita hari ini membuatkan mereka lebih mementingkan kerjaya selain ingin mengukuhkan ekonomi masing-masing sebelum membuat keputusan mencari pasangan hidup.

“Pada 1991, 20.4 peratus lelaki berusia 30 hingga 34 tahun belum pernah berkahwin. Jumlah ini meningkat kepada 24.7 peratus pada 2000. Jumlah ini jauh lebih tinggi jika dibandingkan dengan wanita yang belum pernah berkahwin.

“Pada 1991, hanya 12.4 peratus wanita berusia 30 hingga 34 tahun belum pernah berkahwin. Jumlah ini hanya meningkat kepada 12.7 peratus pada 2000. Wanita bujang berusia 35 hingga 39 tahun jauh lebih rendah berbanding lelaki iaitu 7.8 peratus pada 1991 dan 2000,” katanya.

Jumlah lelaki dan wanita bujang yang memilih untuk tidak berkahwin turut memberikan kesan kepada kadar kelahiran di negara ini. Berdasarkan graf Kadar Kesuburan mengikut Kumpulan Etnik di Semenanjung Malaysia: 1957 hingga 2000, kadar kesuburan semakin menurun sejak 15 tahun merdeka.

“Peningkatan lelaki dan wanita tidak berkahwin turut memberikan kesan kepada kadar kelahiran yang semakin menurun. Jumlah kelahiran terus menurun pada 36.1 pada 1965 sehingga 30.6 pada 1980.

“Bagaimanapun ia meningkat kepada 31.5 pada 1985, tetapi terus menurun sehingga 18.3 pada 2005. Ini disebabkan semakin ramai penduduk Malaysia berkahwin lewat atau memilih untuk tidak berkahwin,” katanya.

Walaupun selepas merdeka, kaum Cina dan India lebih ramai melahirkan anak berbanding Melayu, tetapi kadar kesuburan dua kaum itu semakin menurun dari tahun ke tahun. Bermula 1972, Melayu didapati lebih ramai melahirkan anak iaitu lima anak bagi setiap keluarga berbanding 4.3 bagi Cina dan 4.4 bagi India. Sehingga 2000, kadar kelahiran terus menurun di kalangan Melayu (3.5), Cina (2.5) dan India (2.4).

lagi pasal BOM...WHY BLAME MUSLIM?N NOW EVEN MORE...DOCTORS AND MEDICALS TUDENTS???

2007-07-03T10:19:00.000-07:00

Terror suspects all linked to NHS

Police made two arrests at Royal Alexandra Hospital in Paisley

Eight people arrested in connection with failed car bombings in Glasgow and London all have links with the National Health Service, the BBC has learned.

Seven are believed to be doctors or medical students, while one formerly worked as a laboratory technician.

Australian media have identified a man arrested at Brisbane airport as Dr Mohammed Haneef, 27.

Two men have been arrested in Blackburn under terror laws but police have not confirmed a link with the car bombs.

The pair were detained on an industrial estate and are being held at a police station in Lancashire on suspicion of offences under the Terrorism Act 2000.

Thousands of passengers travelling from Heathrow Airport's Terminal 4 face major delays after a suspect bag sparked a security alert.

BAA said the departure lounge was partially evacuated and departing passengers were being re-screened, causing some cancellations and delays.

Tube trains on the Piccadilly Line were non-stopping at Heathrow Terminal 4, but the station serving terminals one, two and three remained open.

Handed over

Dr Haneef, who formerly worked in Cheshire, was detained while trying to board a plane to India. A second doctor is also being interviewed in Australia.

Seven doctors or medical students have been arrested in England, Scotland and Australia in connection with the attacks. All worked in NHS hospitals.

Controlled explosions were carried out on a car in Glasgow

Security alert at Heathrow

Who are bomb suspects?

Vetting foreign doctors

Marwah Dana Asha, 27, who was arrested on the M6, is thought to have worked as a lab technician at an NHS hospital in Shrewsbury.

She was arrested with her husband, Dr Mohammed Asha, 26, who worked at the University Hospital of North Staffordshire NHS Trust.

Two men arrested in Scotland on Monday over the attack at Glasgow airport and one held at the scene of the airport attack have been handed over to the Metropolitan Police.

Six of the eight people arrested are now being held at London's Paddington Green police station.

terrorism lagi?huh!!

2007-07-01T11:56:00.000-07:00

sory, i'm so lazy right now to write anything, will do after my exam, insyaAllah...

can go here http://www.uk-airport-news.info/glasgow-airport-news-010707.htm

here a copy from bbc news

London airports tighten security

The national threat level has been raised to critical

Increased armed patrols have been deployed at two London airports following a suspected terrorist attack at Glasgow Airport.

Armed police are patrolling Heathrow and London City airports in light of the current terror threat.

Passengers have also been warned of delays after restrictions were placed on cars entering forecourts.

Airport operator BAA said forecourts were closed to traffic on orders from the police.

It follows an incident in Scotland on Saturday in which two men drove a burning car into the terminal building at Glasgow Airport.

Nationwide ban

The suspected terrorist attack has prompted a ban on the picking up and dropping off of passengers by vehicles at airport forecourts nationwide.

BAA corporate affairs director Duncan Bomfield said: "Forecourts at airports are basically shut or very restricted to vehicles, with cabs being directed to short-stay car parks."

"There's no dropping off at the moment and there certainly won't be for a while. Fortunately, at Heathrow Airport, most passengers are heeding our advice and arriving and leaving by public transport."

The move has caused long queues of traffic on the M2 near Gatwick Airport.

The UK threat level has been raised to critical - meaning that a terrorist attack is expected imminently.

i thought i'm tough..but i'm not !!!

2007-06-06T10:47:00.000-07:00

i thought i'm....but i'm.... can be anything really... it's too much for me... ohh..arghh...cant write anything right now...it's all gone ... be back later...

setiap pertemuan ada perpisahan...

2007-05-27T07:31:00.000-07:00

Smalam da diadakan bbq n farewell kmd at camperdown park. alhamdullillah semuanya berjln lancar altho it was drizzling at the end of the bbq...tak dapat nak posing best2 utk gambar kmd ..hehe..majlis dimulakan dgn kata2 aluan dr ustaz lutfi, tazkirah dr tuan haji yatiban n diteruskan dgn pertandingan menghias buah utk para ibu n girls undergrad...in the mean time, org2 kuat bbq sibuk mem'bbq' ayam, lamb n sosej (thanks a lot to them) sbb diorg jugakla kitorg dpt makan beramai2 that day. Gubahan buah yg berjaya dihasilkan dr kump A-stroller(very cute n creative), kump B-fruit paradise(kump ku yg takde arah tuju) n kump C yg jugak kump para ibu semuanya menghasilkan gubahan yg sesuai utk majlis tunang or kawin (huhu). Pertandingan telah dimenangi oleh kump Stroller.

Penyampaian hadiah disusuli dgn acara yg dinantikan oleh semua org iaitu makan..haha...laku btol food..saya sdiri tak sempat nak merasa karipap..ayam tandoori pon sempat capai seketul jer, tu pon yg terakhir, ish..ish...nampak sgt org dundee ni mmg pandai memasak (plus suka makan jugak) after makan, acara penyampaian cenderamata utk warga2 kmd yg akan berhijrah kuar from dundee -kak farhana n abg jamal, raffiz yg nak balik utk kawen n kerja kat msia, siti yg nak blk keje kat msia (die ni tak terpengaruh langsung dgn semua org yg sruh stay sambung blaja) n lastly hedzril yg nak gi london keje kat sana. all the best to all of u guys...nice to know u all altho its only a year ( or even less than that)..n thanks a lot for ur help esp when i 1st came here. hope we can meet again , in msia maybe..insyaAllah...may Allah bless us

so lazy...

2007-05-24T11:01:00.000-07:00

sory sgt2...esp to kak inda yg rajin sgt meng'view' kite nye blog nih...tuan sdiri pon malas nak view..haha...it has been a while since my last post..alhamdullillah..i hv handed in my project at last..n my supervisor said he enjoyed reading it (he better give me good result then..huhu) all my other friends, 2nd, 3rd, 5th year medics, engine....those who finished their exams..all the best for ur result...n for those going back to msia or already in msia...send my regards to msia pls cos i'm not goin home this summer..sob..sob..kind of regretting it but nevermine..insyaallah i will go home this winter..pray for me..this coming weekend, they'll be having a barbeque...hope that i'll be rajin enuf to put up the photos here...thats all for now..

it's april now...

2007-04-04T13:24:00.000-07:00

salam....'update lar, update pls' hahaha...da tak larat dgr org sruh update...lazy&busy-my favourite reasons...hehe...
mmm....it's already april...3 months left...exam coming...but i still njoy myself..too much(my fren always say this to me)...yup...i admit it..march was a very 'busy' month for me...went to alton tower in stoke, then birm, then coventry...manchester n preston at the end of the month ( a bit melampau i guess)..even my poket pon da cukup terkoyak...
of all the places i went last month, i would like to share my experiences in manchester...i wudnt be enuf if i want to write all of them..huhu...it was the imam symposium with 'extreme medicine' as the theme this yr...congrats to all the committee members esp plus to all delegates who joined the sympo..i know u all hv great time...i myself hv great time there 'altho i ve to be faci on the spot' but i learned lots of new things there..thanks to all the doctors who joined us, came all the way from msia...yea..who want to join mercy msia, dun forget to register after u graduates! fiqh medicine was very useful, thanks to dr.latiff for the good discussion, wish we could have more time to discuss bout it..i 'l spread the words around...ibadah pesakit book were sold out, all of them..hehe..penjual buku yg berjaya jugak saya ni kan...for my frens yg havent buy their 'aceh book'..pls contact me...its a donation to the orphanage house in acheh...marilah bersedekah...there s few more left...
okay2..back to the sympo...most of the delegates find the practical session really helpful...i guess its true...when i was in london that time, i felt the same...hope we can use what we have learned in the future for the good...insyaAllah..
now i'm back in dundee...get back to my normal daily life..with my books n project...i wish i could turn the time backwards..hahaha..
thats all for the time being,...wassalam

about palestin-copy from raudah's blog

2007-04-04T04:16:00.000-07:00

History and Background

Palestine was a holy and sacred land for the three religions; Islam, Christianity and Judaism. There, Al-Aqsa mosque stood, which was the 1^st direction to which muslims prayed, the place where prophet Muhammad s.a.w was ascended to heaven during Isra’ Mi’raj and it was the 3^rd holiest mosque after Masjidil Haram in Mecca and Masjid Nabawi in Medina.

There were many verses in the quran mentioning the land of Al-Quds whether directly or indirectly. It is referred to, in the chapter of Al-Isra’ as the blessed land (note that Allah said that He blessed all the pieces of lands around it- that includes Jordan, Syria and Lebanon,as some said. So if lands around it were blessed, how then, were the blessings endowed upon the land itself!!)

Palestine is the land of determination between truth and falsehood. It is the land of battle field between the forces of good and the forces of evil. It is also the land where thousands of martyrs had shed their blood and sacrificed their precious souls for the sake of fighting the enemy of Allah. When Allah s.w.t mentioned Mecca in the quran (one of the 3 holy places for the muslims), He referred to is as ‘haraaman aamina’, which meant protected and peaceful. But whenever He mentioned the land of Quds , no such guarantee of peace was given, and it was always correlated with jews. The conclusion that we can get here is that Allah has made 2 places sacred for the muslims, one protected and peaceful, where muslims visit to humble themselves and prostrate to Allah, and the other where muslims fight and shed blood to ensure that it is the religion of Allah that will be superior to others.

This reflects our duties as muslims and slaves Of Allah. As muslims we have 2 main obligations in life. First, ibadah, as the verse goes, wa ma khalaqtul jinna wal insa illa liya’budun. And second, khilafah, as the verse goes, inni jaa’ilun fil ardhi khaleefah. And the obligation of khilafah is probably a lot bigger and tougher than merely ibadah. In the context of Palestine, to fulfil our role as khaleefah means to join our hands together with those fighting for Palestine and do everything we can to ensure the divine victory.

The main conflict of Palestine is the Israeli invasion and brutal massacre. Before 1948, Israel started to occupy Palestine slowly after its colonization by British (it was the British occupation that helped the Israelis establish settlements in Palestine before they left), and since then the Israeli expanded their settlements until more than 50% of the whole Palestine became under their control and Palestine is now almost invisible in the world map!

The fight to liberate Palestine started a long time ago, from the time of Umar Al-Khattab r.a, continued by Salahuddin Al-Ayyubi and till now, the fight still goes on. One would wonder, why Palestine in particular? Isn’t there any other place on earth? After the fall of the great khilafah of Ottoman Turks, the muslim nation faced the biggest and most humiliating defeat ever witnessed by history. The biggest consequent of this defeat, besides the muslims not having a sole protector and point of reference, was of course, the division of muslim lands. The winning forces of the world war, backed by jews, found a way to divide and disunite the muslim lands- by creating and establishing a great new force/ power in the middle of arab countries, they were sure muslims around it would be weakened.

So in 1948, Israel was officially established, by means of brutal massacres and force. In that year alone, 34 massacres were carried out and 2/3 out of 10 million Palestinians were driven out. Millions were killed, enslaved, houses were demolished, families were tragically separated, and most painfully, their rights to return to Palestine were denied. Thousands of reasons were given to justify their acts; biblical rights, historical rights ,etc. But the truth was that, none of these reasons was logical, or to be accepted. If one debates and speaks from the biblical point of view, then there would be no standard clash, since the muslims would speak from the quranic point of view, and the debate would go on forever. From the historical point of view, the jews claimed that their descendants had been there for thousands of years, even if that was true, it still could not deny the fact that Palestinians were there first. History had marked that even before the 1^st jew came, there was already Jerico, the oldest city and civilization in the world, built 11 000 years ago. Who were these people?

In the quran, when Allah ordered the jews to enter the land of Al-Quds with prophet Musa and promised them victory, they refused to fight and said ‘go, you and your Lord, we shall stay and sit here,’ and so the land was forbidden for them. But that is not the point. When we look back closely, one of the reasons why the jews refused to enter the land was because they knew there were already people living in it. The jews referred to them as ‘qauman jabbariyyun’, in the holy quran, which meant a strong nation. Who were these strong people and nation, if not the Palestinians, the original inhabitants of the land?

The Armageddon War

The Armageddon war is a big war predicted to occur on this blessed land, in the future, as believed by Christian Evangelists. The term ‘Armageddon’ originated from a city in north Palestine, called mejdu, or Mageddo.

The evangelists believed that this will be the battle of determination between truth and falsehood, and after the divine force wins, there will be a period of 1000 years of happiness. It has to occur on this blessed land, and joined by the Christians. But this war cannot happen unless all the jews in Palestine are converted to Christianity by Jesus Christ. And the corversion cannot happen unless jesus came to Palestine. And Jesus, on the other hand, will not come to Palestine to convert the jews until all the jews are gathered there.

So that is why Evangelists Christians are supporting so much the establishment of the Israel state and gathering of jews there. Statistics show that 70% of American Christians are evangelists. USA former President, Ronald Reagan used to mention the Armageddon war 4 times while campaigning in 1984.

Statistics

The land which was once supposed to be Palestine is now only a small portion of the original land; West Bank and Gaza Strip (with approximately 190 Israeli settlements inside West Bank)

From 1918 to 1948, under the British occupation, the number of Palestinians living in the country dropped from 92% to 68.3% while the number of Jews increased from 8.4% to 31.7%. In 1948, 34 massacres drove out about 2/3 of the remaining Palestinians. Now, more than ½ of the original 10 million Palestinians live outside Palestine, whether as official citizens or refugees. Only 3.8 million are in West Bank and Gaza Strip, some are still refugees, in their own land! There are about 21 camps in West Bank and 8 camps in Gaza Strip.

The majority of current Palestinian refugees live in Jordan (3 million), 400 000 in Lebanon, 400 000 in Syria and 50 000 in Egypt. Refugees in Iraq face the worst condition, followed by Lebanon.

Case Study In Lebanon

All over, there are 12 Palestinian refugee camps in Lebanon. The biggest is in Ein el- Hilweh. From 1975-1990 Lebanon was inflicted with a civil war which left 150 000 dead and made the condition even worse for the Palestinian refugees. Conflicts and disputes went on further when people came to know that in 1950’s the Palestinian Christians were given citizenships, but not the muslims.

The Palestinians face a really tough situation in Lebanon, because of discrimination and denial of their very basic rights. The Lebanese government itself is responsible for most of the discriminations. To understand the basis of these discriminations, one has to know the political conditions in Lebanon.

The biggest concerns in Lebanon are always demographic changes and balance of power. Since power there is shared between many religious groups and sects, any slight change in the country’s demography may lead to significant changes in political power domination.

The muslims to Christians ratio is now 65:35, based on rough estimations. The real number and ratio between religions in Lebanon are never really exactly known, in spite of many requests by the Lebanese, for fear of emotional protests and radical reactions. Most muslims are sunnis, with all the 4 sects (syafi’i, maliki, hanafi, hambali) almost in equal proportions, followed by Shiites (with almost all the 12 official sects), and dhruz, another so-called orthodox Islamic group (but deviated, according to some other).The Christians too, on the other hand, consists of almost all the sects you can find in the world, making Lebanon the most politically complicated country on earth, for the whole world is represented here.

Since the slightest change in Lebanon’s demography may lead to political instability, the issue of giving Palestinian refugees official citizenships is very sensitive, especially considering the fact that 98% of them are sunnis. The Palestinians, till now, are prevented from getting involved in 72 types of occupations. These include professional jobs like doctors, engineers, accountants, involvement in any types of management and even governmental institutions.

Access to education, too, is very limited, rendering 10% of Palestinians above 18 illiterate. 7.3% has no educational certificate, 20.5% completed primary education, 23.5% completed intermediate education and 14.4% completed secondary education.

Analyzing this situation from a broader perspective, you will find these statistics really distressing. Palestine is not like any other ordinary muslim country .It is incomparable even to other Arab nations. Education is perceived as sacred by Palestinians, and in 1980’s the level of education of Palestinians was found to be one of the best among muslim countries, close behind Europe. The discrimination, poverty and lack of access to work and education they have to face, however, forced 39.5% of Palestinian refugees in Lebanon to leave schools.

Poverty is now another problem spreading among them. 80% Palestinians in Lebanon can be considered as fuqara’ (extremely poor), but bear in mind that their poverty is never due to lack of qualification or laziness, rather it is due to lack of access to work. Another interesting fact I learned was that Palestinians have always been known for their strong principles, dignity and high self-respect. In spite of being poor and in need, they are taught not to ask and beg for anything. Indeed, they are a nation full of pride and honor.

To give a brief outlook on the Palestinians’ condition in the camps, 1/3 of the houses have no access to sunlight. The camps themselves were built unsystematically, with poor ventilation and overcrowding. 40% have insufficient water supply and 67.1% have poor electricity. Not surprisingly, almost half of them (48.5%) suffer from chronic diseases.

Possibility of Returning

Surveys have been carried out among Palestinians, especially those living in refugee camps in Lebanon with the number one favourite question ; do you think you will return to Palestine one day?

39.1% said ‘yes, sure’, while 40.1% said ‘yes, but maybe not this generation’.

The spirit of returning is so strong in every Palestinian soul that almost each and every family ,till now, keeps the key to his house, even though their ancestors were driven out from the land in 1948. The keys were passed down from generation to generation as a symbol of love for Palestine, and confidence that one day they would eventually return. Paradoxically, when asked, most of the current generation had never even seen their houses, or even their homelands. Some were even not sure if their houses had been bulldozed by the Israelis!

The most impressive fact is that 79.6% of Palestinians said they wanted not only to return to Palestine, but specifically to the hometown to which their ancestors originally belonged to, and where their families were expelled from. Even more amazingly, 20% rejected civil rights offered to them for fear of permanent settlements in Lebanon.

The Crisis of Hamas and Fatah

It is always painful to talk about disputes and disunity in a country when the country itself is under occupation. I myself would rather leave this topic, but the fact that I had listened to a long talk and explanation by a figure in whom I believe and trust, I feel responsible to share what I learnt. I believe in a bright future, positive unity and cooperation, and of course, more importantly, I believe that the truth will always prevail, as promised by Allah. The true muslims shall gain victory over the hypocrites, and the hypocrites, sadly, will definitely be brought to face utter humiliation and defeat when the time determined by Allah comes.

To make the crisis easier to be understood, it is best to summarize the whole idea in the following equation;

Hamas vs. Fatah = resistance vs. political compromises

Fatah is a secular political party, founded with an original pure objective of fighting the Israelis and liberating the whole Palestine. But over the years, its ideology and aim became weakened by internal problems and external pressures. Now, its agenda is well-known; political compromises, that is to recognize the existence of Israel and its rights.

Fatah is now facing 2 problems; structural problem and directional problem. There are great disputes and division among Fatah members themselves. A decision made by its leaders is not necessarily put into practice by its followers, making any discussions with Fatah almost impossible, and any resolutions always unsuccessful. Although Fatah still has many loyal supporters from the time of Yasser Arafat, most of its members are corrupt and have many records of money mismanagement, resulting in continuous tense and lack of mutual trust between them.

The biggest police force and ratio in the world (60 000) is also under Fatah, about 1:70 (highest in the world), whereas the police to people ratio in UK is only about 1:1750. This is another prove of how Fatah misuses its police force for political interests. For the past few months, after Hamas had gained victory in the election, some security forces of Fatah started to assassinate Hamas leaders. Some even helped America and Israel prevent transfer of money to the Hamas-led government.

Hamas, on the other hand is a branch of Muslim Brotherhood, founded officially in Palestine in 1931. Its ideology is crystal clear; never to recognize Israel or give Israel any rights, liberate the whole Palestine from the Israeli colonization with no political compromises. The fundamental ideology of Hamas is based purely on the teachings of Islam, thus Hamas had declared that victory over Israel will lead to the establishment of an Islamic Palestine country.

The problem of Hamas, on the other hand is how to implement its policies on the ground, with all the external pressures and sanctions by America and the outside world, together with internal instabilities and chaos created by opposing Fatah. Its resistance operations have attracted international attention and brought about terrible misunderstandings, therefore giving rise to labels of terrorist, extremists, religion fanatics, etc.

Hamas leaders are so far proudly 100% free of any charges of corruption, misconducts, receiving bribes and money misuse. Promises made to the Palestinians are fulfilled, except when conditions get too bad and discouraging. Hamas , in fact, was the first to offer a ‘clean war’ with Israel, putting ‘avoiding the civillians’ as one of the preconditions, but Israel refused. The unfair charges against Hamas, especially regarding its support for the so-called suicide bombing operations (that is, if you know well enough how to define that term and understand its nature) were used by Israel as an excuse to continue killing innocent civilians, destroying houses, arresting and torturing anyone based solely on suspicion.

Many scholars, after thorough surveys and researches came to learn an interesting conclusion: there is no other reason why so many are against Hamas except for its Islamic ideology and association with the Muslim Brotherhood.

the day i turn 23

2007-03-13T16:06:00.000-07:00

it's the 13th of March today...wow...i'm now 23 years old...getting older n older....it really mean a lot when my age increase by 1 each year...every time my other friends celebrate their birthday, i ll say to them...one yr older meaning one year wiser...so thats now back to myself...i hv reflect it back to me...new resolution...erm..not really bcos i dun even achieve my last resolution...so maybe i shud continue with the previous one first...but i still can add summore =)
nway, 1st of all....thanks to all my parents n friends who wish me, still remember my birthday..that s mean a lot to me...i love u guys....n thanks oso to those who gave me presents n even baked cake for me (that was very nice of u-siti n yuzi)

so back to celebrating birthday...there is people out there saying that its not good celebrating birthday?but y?well...it depends on how do u look at it i think...we does celebrate Rasulullah birthday...maybe it s a good way to remind ourself that we ve been to this world for that long...but what have we done, what have we achieved...for our religion, our belief, our family, ourself?

opps...gtg for now...have to prepare for tomorrow...to be continued...

jimat duit...how?

2007-03-10T13:40:00.000-08:00

setelah sekian lama tak meng'update' blog, akhirnye arini terbukak ati nak tulis sumthing...n this time, nothing to do wif medicine...da ade beberapa sahabat yg complain bile saya tulis bende yg ade kaitan ngan medic..ok2..

jimat duit?saje pilih topic nih sbb slalu sgt dgr problem student tak cukup duit..mana taknye, esp scholars lar...takkire la jpa ke petronas ke telekom ker...byk mane pon duit yg dpt mesti tak cukup?nape jadi cam tuh ek? mane taknye, duit skali masuk for 3 months..bile duit masuk jer..joli tak ingt dunia...semua bende nak beli...masuk beli ke3, ha..mule2 nak pinjam duit kwn, hutang sana hutang cn..terpaksa berikat perut...kalo masuk bulan ke3 je da takde duit, ade lagi ke balance for saving?utk sedekah?utk amal jariah?nak bg kat parents?bilenye nak simpan duit utk kawen, beli kereta, umah?..erm...rasanye situasi camni bukan jer berlaku kat student uk jer...tp mana2jer student....termasukla diri saya....

so..saya cuma nak kongsi sikit ape yg saya rasa bole membantu kite save our money, kalo tak byk pon, sikit jadiler....at least takyah sampai ikut perut tiap kali ujung bulan....tp most of the tips referred to uk student lar...but still mane yg sesuai tuh bole di gune pakai...
1st skali, it is good to have 2 bank account..satu utk yg slalu gune n satu lagi utk saving...so yg slalu gune tuh biarla ade visa ke master card ker..so senang la kalo nak travel..takyah nak bwk cash..tp bile ade plak, problem le plak, main gune card tak ingt dunia....beli barang jer, kuar card...so utk elakkan bende2 ni happen, it is advisable to get debit card with visa rather than credit card with visa....sbb nyer 1) takde interest 2) kite cuma bole guna duit yg kite ade jer...so takkan terjadi problem terlebey kuar duit unless kite ade overdraft....but actually bole jer terlebey kuar duit..pastu bersiap sedia la utk bayar denda...saya da ade pengalaman, tu yg nak ingtkan kengkawan semua...lebey gune less than 5 pound pon, tapi die nye denda, sehari over limit kena 30 pound...taubat daler saya taknak buat lagi...n overdraft bole la nak apply tp better jgn la kot...sbb kalo terlibat dgn hutang2 ni, idup pon tak tenteram kan...

account yg satu lagi plak, yg kite susah nak kuar kan duit...if possible, internet banking kalo takde lagi bagus..kire kalo kite masuk duit tuh, mmg susah sgtla nak kuarkan...kire cam beku la kat dlm bank tuh..ni for saving la...kirenyer..bile duit jpa or pet or tel or whatever la kan yg masuk, tolak2 duit2 essential (sewa,bil2,transport,groceries,fotostat kertas) bape balance yg ade...so amik sket n simpan dlm saving account. n duit saving ni ade la lebey baek kalo ade at least 1/10 pon jadila di save kan utk amal jariah...moga2 ade la saving utk bekalan akhirat jugak ye tak?takle dunia jer kan...

ok..bile semua da settle, skang yg left duit utk belanja...ingtkan diri inila total yg bole digunakan utk shopping, makan luar, belanja kwn, beli hadiah kwn, travel dsb....so beringat2la...jadi skangni camne plak nak jimat kos bagi belanja2 yg tak perlu nih?

orait..for shopping...kalo cam groceries tuh, try beli barang yg tak urgent bile ade offer..cam buy 1 get1 free ker..yg reduced ker....kalo yg harus n wajib tuh no choice la kan...n then kalo ade cam card2 cthnye tesco card kan ...why not apply for that kalo tau kite mmg slalu shopping kat situ...(tesco ni yahudi nyer...so better di elakkan, tp kat dundee no choice, tu jer yg ader =) sbb card2 camni, kite collect point then, bile da byk kite dpt coupon, so bole la jimat for next shopping....its actually worth it lar...camtuh jugakla dkt kedai2 lain, kalo ade card jer, try find out ape advantage card2 tuh..n bape kena bayar, slalu ker kite nak shopping kat situ...cam body shop card, u get 15% discount...boots card dpt collect point...n byk lg ler...n card2 ni plak, kalo yg free takpela...tp kalo kena bayar, try to be aware la..sbb slalunye diorg ade buat promotion free card or dpt murah sket....
pastu kalo cam groceries kan, kalo rasa nk beli byk barang...time2 nak beli beras, susu dsb (bende2 yg berat2 kan) kdg2 ade baeknye buat delivery jer....delivery pon dlm 5 pound jer die charged, kalo rasa pegi balik naik bus sama dgn harga delivery baekla buat delivery, jimat masa n tenaga, n besanye kalo beli over 50 pound, delivery free ajer...i've tried once, ok jer...die takde la anta brg2 yg da nak expired ke ape, okjer...lagipon kat cn kan ader consumer right, kalo tak puas ati, return jer..no hal lah
n ade sorg scrub nurse nih recommend kan this website for me mase tgh tunggu next surgery (opps, terinclude jugak sket psl medic)...
http://www.madaboutbargains.co.uk/coupons/Coupon_Crazy.htm
kat sini ade coupon2 yg bole digunekan kalo anda kaki shopping...bole share dgn kwn sbb mostly kena over certain limit kan..ade mcm2 tips camne nak save money...cth kalo travel pakai train, lagi murah kalo nak travel jauh, beli tiket yg breakdown journey...compare kalo beli straight punye...btol, kalo tak caya bole try..

next step, pasal handfon....belila yg 12months free line rental....kalo takpon at least 9-10 mths free...jgn la berlagak sgt beli ygkena bayar full...mmg kadang2 kite teen nih kalo handfon baru kuar, nak sgt2...nak 'eksyen'la katakan...tp tak rugi pon kalo tunggu handfon tu trun dulu harga, then time tuh bykla ofer...tp bile beli yg cashback ni, jgnla lalai plak..kang hangus jer duit tuh..jgn lupe nakclaim da...so pandai2 la nak remind diri sdiri kay...rasenyer semua org pon tau website2 yg best utk handfon kan..so saje letak one of them kat cn sbb website nih bole compare semua contract yg ader
http://www.mobdeal.com/

ape lagi ek..erm...baru2 nih saya dpt 15 pound rail voucher....slalunyer voucher2 camni company2 yg buat survey akan bagi...so rerajin ler take part kalo org buat survey...n cam kat uni kan, student or lecturer yg buat research tuh, diorg besa bayar participant, bolela kalo free2 tuh join..dpt la dlm 3-5 pound..lepasla belanja sehari due kan..alamak, tak jumpe le plak website utk survey2 tuh..nanti bile da jumpe saya letak kat cn...

pastu pasal print gambar...org2 kat dundee tgh musim print gambar skangni selepas snapfish diperkenalkan...
http://www1.snapfish.co.uk
register kat situ dpt 40 print free, then each friend yg kite refer, kite dpt 20 additional print..i think thats worth it lar...ade lagi satu
http://www.photobox.co.uk
yg ni register akan dpt 30 print free...so why not join now?

pada sesape yg suke travel...make sure u plan ur journey as early as possible, thats really save u ...cth termudah la kan..megabus tuh..kalo beli awal2, sepound jer pon...at least kalo burn, takde la rasa membazir sgt..btol tak?pastu kalo website yg setiap kali beli kena byr booking fee kan, beli siap2 tiket return, kalo travel dgn kwn2, beli sesame, takdelamembazir setiap kali beli, kena byr booking fee..

erm..ape lagi..basically, kalo ape2 jer bende yg kite slalu gune/beli, try to search kat internet dulu, tgk kalo2 ade website yg offer free trial....at least dpt la jimat sket for the first few wks lps gune service tuh...n tak dilupakan, setiap kali shopping, bwkla student card bersama, tanye dulu sbelom bayar sbb most kedai bg discount kat student...gune card tuh, nanti da keje baru sedar...time tuh da takde student discount da

pade sesape yg byk free time yg rasenye slalu dibazirkan jer..ade la lebey baek kalo pegi cari keje part time....tp ni depend on own judgement la kan..jgn sampai bende lain terabai sudah...rasenye takat ni jer dulu , tak dpt pk bende lain da....so harap ade yg bergune...marilah kite menabung!..hehe

mugheto kmd

2007-02-12T14:21:00.000-08:00

another kmd actvt last weekend...mugheto stands for muharram get together (what a brilliant name) was held on last sat...it was fun,njoying...played bowling, then lunch then surah(only the girls wud understand this =p) then dinner at our house...tho my bowling ball always went into the drain (i dunno why this happened), it was funny to see the kids playing..haha...i wish i have little brother n sister... kak inda n abg kai wif baby danish spent their nite in our house....initially, they wanted to go home, but as we all kept persuading, they finally agreed...together wif other dundee's undergrads, we were talking thru out the nite...talked bout gossips, nonsense, history, n even general knowledge bout msia (referred to those who were in my room =P) whatever it is...really njoy this weekend spending time wif all my friends...i wondered if i ll be able to join such activities when i start working later...ermmm....wallahualam

IMAM symposium, seminar ibadah pesakit and aceh book

2007-01-30T01:47:00.000-08:00

here is d poster for coming imam symposium in manchester...promoting to all medics out there who r interested to learn more about medicine in terms of emergency,
trauma condition...

n below is about seminar ibadah pesakit..

IMAM SC Eire is currently working for the SEMINAR IBADAH PESAKIT programme.

Below are the tentative dates at respective venues:

1. CORK - 10 FEB 2007, Saturday

2. GALWAY - 17 FEB 2007, Saturday

3. BELFAST - 24 FEB 2007, Saturday

4. DUBLIN - 3 MARCH 2007, Saturday

anyone interested can contact any of d imam_ire rep

bout aceh book, it has been more than 1 1/2 yr now, n we, 10 of us, medics that went to aceh after tsunami r still selling this book. FYI, all money we ve collected will be use to fund d orphanage home n to build up mosque in aceh...so if anyone interested to help us raising fund, get this book now!

kak inda, abg kai n danish....

2007-01-28T01:37:00.000-08:00

get to know them for just 6 months ago (danish for 2 months kot) but feel like knowing them for long time already...n last weekend, helped them moving out to glasgow...such a sad moment =( really njoy when they were in dundee....my housemt n I...when we r damn bored, nak buat ape ek?jom ar, lepak umah kak inda...gi tgk danish.... nak gi tesco ke gi mane2 ke...tumpang diorg...mmg diorg ni da cam our big sis n big bro lar...really miss them a lot weh...nak advice pape, jusk ask them...they r good at it....d japanese style dinner, wont forget it...korg nih mmg slalu ade jer idea2...

last weekend, most of dundee undergrads went to glasgow together wif them...helped them carry their things into their new house...d new house really nice...like it very much...ct n i, we already booked 1 room for us..haha...

suddenly out of idea...can see the photos i ve attached...nway, goin 2 see them again this weekend..nak jln2 glasgow plak...cant wait for it

surgery OR medicine?

2007-01-20T01:10:00.000-08:00

erm...which one suits u better? i dun have d answer now but there r lots of opinion regarding this...eg. 'kalo jd surgeon, nanti takde masa utk bende2 lain, trust me, nanti da takleh join imam, takleh njoy kat luar, utk family pon limited'.......'if u do like surgery, go on wif it...esp as a lady surgeon, msia now , we dun hv enuf lady surgeon, u know y?bcos not many girls like surgery, so if u do, go on wif it, y not?'........'org yg amik medicine ni family oriented la, tp surgery tak sgt la' huh...what a -ve opinion kan....there is still time for me to think bout that...leave that behind first...but now build up ur interest....

as i njoy suturing (thanks to simon for letting me close d wound), goin theatre, assist in operation(thanks to mr.wood for allowing me assist d open appendicectomy) , more or less i feel like i'm determined for surgery..but really i cant decide it...

here is 1 website i found to be interesting...it s nothing to do wif medicine or surgery really but this study is quite funny...cant stop laughing =)

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2006/12/061222092912.htm

here r some general info what a physician and surgeon do, dedicated to all medical student in dilemma like me....

Physicians and surgeons serve a fundamental role in our society and have an effect upon all our lives. They diagnose illnesses and prescribe and administer treatment for people suffering from injury or disease. Physicians examine patients, obtain medical histories, and order, perform, and interpret diagnostic tests. They counsel patients on diet, hygiene, and preventive health care.

Physicians work in one or more of several specialties, including, but not limited to, anesthesiology, family and general medicine, general internal medicine, general pediatrics, obstetrics and gynecology, psychiatry, and surgery.

Surgeons. Surgeons are physicians who specialize in the treatment of injury, disease, and deformity through operations. Using a variety of instruments, and with patients under general or local anesthesia, a surgeon corrects physical deformities, repairs bone and tissue after injuries, or performs preventive surgeries on patients with debilitating diseases or disorders. Although a large number perform general surgery, many surgeons choose to specialize in a specific area. One of the most prevalent specialties is orthopedic surgery: the treatment of the musculoskeletal system. Others include neurological surgery (treatment of the brain and nervous system), cardiovascular surgery, otolaryngology (treatment of the ear, nose, and throat), and plastic or reconstructive surgery. Like primary care and other specialist physicians, surgeons also examine patients, perform and interpret diagnostic tests, and counsel patients on preventive health care.

PUISI-7 habits of highly effective people

2007-01-01T14:55:00.000-08:00

Habit 1 - Be Proactive - Take responsibility for your life (I am the Force!!!)

Kita jgn tunggu dan lihat org buat sebaliknya kita yg kena initiate dulu...

Proactive -» Rangsangan -» Nilai -» Bertindak menepati nilai

Reactive -» Rangsangan -» Bertindak mengikut rangsangan

Inactive -» aku tak pedulisme.....

"What happen to you is not as important as what happen in you..."

Apabila terjadi sesuatu masalah pd diri kita, kita selalu cuba utk menuding pd org lain utk mencari kesalahan org lain, tk nak melihat kelemahan diri sendri dahulu.. org slalu ckp bile 1 jari menuding kesalahan org, ade 4 lg jari menuding pd diri sendri.. oleh itu, sebelum mencari kesalahan org lain, kita kena meletakkan satu button dlm diri ini yaktu berfikir + bersabar..dgn itu kita boleh menilai baik buruk sesuatu perkara dan merima sgala yg terjadi seadanya dan akan mencari jalan yg terbaik utk memperbaiki keadaan...

Habit 2 - Begin with the end in mind - Define your mission and goals in life

"Control ur own destiny or somebody will..."

Visi - Apa yg kita kehendaki masa depan

Misi - Sebab kewujudan kita di bumi

"Ingatlah ketika Tuhanmu berfirman kepada para Malaikat:` Sesungguhnya Aku hendak menjadikan seorang khalifah di muka bumi `. Mereka berkata:` Mengapa Engkau hendak menjadikan (khalifah) di bumi itu orang yang akan membuat kerusakan padanya dan menumpahkan darah, padahal kami senantiasa bertasbih dengan memuji Engkau dan mensucikan Engkau? `Tuhan berfirman:` Sesungguhnya Aku mengetahui apa yang tidak kamu ketahui'." (QS. 2:30)

"Aku tidak menciptakan jin dan manusia melainkan supaya mereka menyembah Ku." (Q.S Az Zariyat: 56)

Habit 3 - Put First Things First - Prioritize, and do the most importants things first

"Know our priority, never procrastinate..."

"Hiduplah kamu di dunia seolah2 kamu ini warga asing atau pengembara di sebuah perjalanan.."...so that kita akan prioritise ape yg penting n make it done first..

The Time Quadrant

Urgent

Not Urgent

Important

Not Important

Habit 4 - Think win - win - have an everyone-can-win attitude

Berfikir utk dptkan faedah dua2 belah pihak..

cth: kek hidangan bufet...kita ambil kek tersebut tanpa mengurangkan bahagian org lain..

jika terjadi sesuatu perbezaan pendapat atau masalah, kita meraikan perbezaan tersebut, bukan nya memilih siapa punya penyelesaian lebih bagus... tetapi menggabungkn kedua2 pendapat supaya membuahkn satu penyelesaian yg lebih baik.. (2 + 2 = 5)

Habit 5 - Seek first to understand, then to be understood - Listen to people sincerely

"Berusaha utk memahami org lain sebelum kita expect org lain memahami kita.."

Contoh Gaya Dengar yg Negatif:

1) Buat2 tak dengar...cth:masa penceramah/ lecturer tgh ckp..(huhu..bukan tak nk mendengar tp mengantuk sbenarnya..alasan semata2..hehe)

2) Buat2 mendengar..cth: menjwb perbualan dgn kata2, "ooo...a ah ye latu... haaa..." (alamak..ni mcm kita je..tu bukan menunjukkan kita seorg pendgr yg baik ke..)

3) Dengar yg mahu di dengar sahaja...cth: "tunang kena posting ke sabah.." org yg mendgr reply, "sabah...cantikkn tempat tu..byk tumbuhan hijau, hutan, bla2...." crite pasal sabah je...org yg bercakap tu sbenarnya nk berborak pasal tunang die..tp org yg mendgr ckp pasal sabah je...sabo je lah...

4) Hanya Dengar...tanpa melihat org yg berckp, body language dan intonasinya.. bule menyebabkn salah tafsir...cth ayat: "Boleh ke tolong belikan seluar dalam 2,3 helai...."

5) Dengar ala "self-centred"...org yg mendgr akan:

- menghukum - lepas dengar terus judge

- menasihat - cth: start ayt dgn "zaman saya dulu......."

- menceroboh - mengorek terlalu banyak drp dia

Gaya Mendengar yg Positif:

53% Bahasa tubuh -» 40% Nada/Perasaan -» 7% Perkataan

Habit 6 - Synergize - Work together to achieve more

"Two brains are better than one "...kalau lg byk brain lg bagus....contoh yg kita bule tgk, kerbau dan burung gembala kerbau..yg memberi kebaikan antara satu sama lain..burung gembala kerbau mencari kutu2 pada badan kerbau skaligus membersihkn kerbau tersebut dan kerbau menjadi tempat penternakan kutu2 yg sekaligus menjadi makanan burung gembala kerbau..

sbenarnya stiap seorg drp kita di dunia ni memainkn peranan masing2...contohnya jika kita perhatikan sepinggan fish n chips yg dijual di kedai...brapa org yg terlibat utk menyiapkan sepinggan makanan itu.... dr nelayan yg menangkap ikan, nelayan tu mestilah memerlukan kapal2/bot2/perahu2..jd mestilah melibatkn org2 yg membuat bot2 tersebut, dibawa ke pemborong, dlm perjalanan kene ade driver yg membawa ikan tersebut, pastu menggunakan kenderaan dan ini melibatkan pekerja2 kilang kenderaan, ke penjual ikan, jd kena ade ais, melibatkn org2 yg kerja dkt ais factory... ke tukang masak, org yg menyiang ikan, pastu org menyiang ikan kena menggunakan pisau, jd tukang buat pisau, pastu nk msk ikan, kena ada ramuan2, jd pekerja2 kilang yg membuat ramuan2 tersebut, kilang tu tersendiri memerlukan ramai sgt pekerja utk menjadikan ia sebuah kilang dr arkitek hingga ke buruh binaan sehinggalah ke penjual fish n chips tersebut..tu tak termasuk pemprosesan chips lg..sbenarnya melibatkn ramai sgt org..da tak terlarat nk menaip.. jadi salah lah seseorg tu kalau die kate die bule hidup dan buat smua benda seorg diri padahal sudah jelas lagi nyata yang seseorg itu sgt2222 memerlukan antara satu sama lain...

Pelan Bertindak Synergi

1-Define the problem/opportunity...tgk real problem n presented problem..pastu define the problem

2-Their way...seek first to understand the ideas of others..

3-My way...seek to be understood by sharing ur ideas..

4-Brainstorm...create new options & ideas...analisa dan bincang2 kan...

5-High way...Find the best solution (2+2=5)

Habit 7 - Sharpen the saw - Renew yourself regularly

"Time to repair the roof is when the sun is shining" John F. Kennedy

sentiasa muhasabah diri dgn membetulkan dan mengemaskinikn dimensi2 fizikal, mental, emosi dan spiritual (BBHS - Body, Brain, Heart, Soul)

Body - senaman, makanan yg seimbang, menjaga kesihatan, tido yg mencukupi

Brain- bykkn membaca, tarbiyyah , menulis

Heart - bersahabat, berkhidmat, bersosial dgn masyarakat

Soul - Zikir N Fikir

Kita bertanggungjawab menjaga diri kita...

oleh itu, MULAKAN!!!!!

1. Mengajak bukan mengajar

2.Bukan ustaz...tp da'ie

3.Memujuk bukan mengutuk

4.Bersikap bukan hanya bercakap

5.Berinteraksi bukan konfrontasi...

p/s-pleagerised from srikandi kembara

a good day for me...

2006-10-05T22:16:00.000-07:00

i m on take yesterday...n i do njoy it bcos d spr n jho ontake wif me were damn nice....as usual clerked in 2 patients...but this time both of them were a 'difficult' ones....d 1st lady she was complaining bcos everybody kept asking her same questions again n again...but what can we do, thats d procedure la makcik...n d 2nd one, he was challenging pain, pain there, pain here...no sensation la...musykil how come a stroke pt loss sensation of his lower n upper limb...facial sensation loss still makes sense lor...i m not too bad today, cool than b4 this, got to present these cases to d consultant...do ecg n venflon..n now i m good at venflon..haha...alhamdullillah..always got that at d 1st time...

n today, i tried ABG...i miss d 1st pt, but even d jho oso miss that d 1st time..so obviously, she s a difficult one...but i got it on 2nd pt, on my 1st go =) haha...so happy that time...but just b4 go back home, i dun manage to get blood n ABG...ish2..teruk btol, maybe bcos i was rushing to go home, socan really concentrate on wat am i doing....but i promise i wont rush next time..

manage to print all my projects stuff...hv to look at them this weekd cos hv to meet my supervisor nexwk...alamak..takut le plak...its almost 2 months but there s still nothing... everyone else already started n even sum of them hv finished theirs....

planning my timetable...wow, i hv packed weekd...n my winter hols was oso packed...so sad that puisi clashed wif pms..how come ar like this one...i want 2 go spain but i want 2 go ireld too...both my frens in soton goin ireld nih...alamak....hv to think bout that la...

from trachea to lungs, including liver and heart

2006-10-05T22:01:00.000-07:00

just now, i went to al noor to buy sum chicken, he asked me if i eat liver or not...yup, i do..so he gave me sum..but i was wondering on my way back home, why is the plastic bag so heavy, is d liver that big? i was shock...mule2 rasa cam nak muntah pon ade...when i opened d plastig bag, there was a long whitish tube...then only i figured out that is d trachea , n he gave me d lungs, liver n a heart..n there were all very big...luckily 2mrow we will hv iftar together (melayu dundee ppl)...so i can cook this 2mrow..coz i dun really eat those organs..lg plak thats from lamb...

ape lagi, d nextday tuh, early morning lagi da start 2 cook...but i decided to cook only d lungs n liver...i dun think ppl will eat d heart n trachea..huhu...so i dissect them all..haha...best gak experience tuh...yer la, we dun hv dissection in imu kan...besides d heart is really big, all d main arteries n veins are clearly viewed...this is d 1st time i cooked inside organs on my own..i dun like smell of d liver....busuk sey...maybe bcos its from lamb...

during d iftar, i really njoy it...meet up wif all dundee ppl, whom i never knew exist b4...yer la, cos i din go to kakfa house tat day, yg kelakarnye...when i asked their name, they all already know me..'ni iftida kan' haha...nama lg glamor dr org....i oso made sum puding for d iftar...n d food were all very nice...n just enuf...most of them r cleared by d time we finished....i m goin 2 miss d 2nd iftar n qiam...=( coz i m goin soton this 14th rugi le plak..timing tak kena btol la...but i m goin to miss raya...ape2 pon, mest nak try join gak

unexpected day

2006-09-22T15:44:00.000-07:00

rasa cam nk nangis (10000x) i just dun expect 2mrow is ramadan...i was hoping that it will be on sunday...i received a msg from hannah (1 of my colleague) saying that 2mrow is ramadan when i was doing venflon on patient during my very 1st on call, oh my goodness! d 1st thing coming into my mind is I'M GOING BACK 2 DUNDEE 2NIGHT! i was in perth @ PRI for medicine 1 just now n i'mactually planning to stay there for tonight but i changed my plan on d spot..lucky me, kirsten, she s d 5th yr studt on call wif me today offered me a ride back 2 dundee..we r supposed to come for post take ward round 2mrow morning but both of us r not going to be there, n dr brown, d consultant on call is not expecting us to be there...besides, theres not many patient for todat tho...

talking bout today, i dun think its a good day but i learned lots of new things..i din expect today turn tobe like this...there s nothing to do in d morning until 1, the 1st patient only came in at 1+. we were bored waiting for patient...n then everything started, 3 margaret's came in, which we thought, oh, its a margaret day...3 patients wif same forename came in n we clerked 1 of them...she has SOB, obvious purse lip breathing n rhonchi all over d lungs, n i suspected there s a left basal crep which my colleague dun think so, but i believe there s a bit bcos when her cxr came back, there s slight consolidation of her left lower lung lobe..i wasnt wrong just that im not confident enuf...i did venflon on her n i manage thatbut i cudnt get bld fr d venflon.her bld was rushing out n they all spills onto d bed..wat a waste of bld...felt so guilty bcos i actually need >20 ml bld cos we had 2 do bld culture 4 her but i just waste them, her bld was all over d bed.

my 2nd venflon, alhamdullillah i manage to get it but same prob, cudnt get her bld, i'm so worried if i din get d venflon on d right place, but she was fine when i flush sum water..i'm pretty sure that i got it right, n yes i am bcos during d evening ward round, i saw d lady was getting her fluid thru my venflon...she has a difficult vein , mind u...she remind me before i did that on her, she said only her gp can get bld from her n she screamed everytime i put a needle on her...hah...n just now on my way back to dundee, kirsten told me that she had transfusion reaction, they gave her bld transfusion bcos she s anaemic, ohh..poor lady..i hope she ll be fine..

evening ward round... got asked many questions by dr.brown...feel stupid cos cudnt answer sum of his easy questions..spinal cord end at?L2 n i answered S2, huhu...memalukan aje...compression of T12 causing LMNL instead ofUMNL..then mass in neck?wat cud it be?i got it right just i took my own sweet time before confidently answer that...nasib baek i can answer his other Q...n then after ward round, went down to get sumthing 2 eat but....d vendor machine telan all my money..40p...ceh...geram tol..so berlaparlah kejap..back to ward, d jho gave me a yogurt..so thats my dinner...

n then venflon again, alhamdullillah i managed to do them all, took bld, ecg, request cxr....at bout 8 i started to clerk a new patient, her history was very vague...she was admitted becos of collapse but she denied that...she said she s just drowsy, fell from chair but still aware of d surroundings...n she had 4 days episode of diarrhoea...history of colon cancer...what s her diagnosis..uh no...i just dunno, after taking history, do PE, then fill in her kardex n request ecg, i went to get my bag n then cabut la...sbb it was already 5 past 10.. yeah..i'm goin back to dundee...

waited for kirsten bf, david..he s 1 of d bmsc student actually, ive met him before, during bridging..he s nice...david dun really know d way to PRi, he got lost few times before finally met us...then he got lost again...he drove towards north instead of west...we both insist him to turn back but he din want 2 listen to ask until kirsten wanted to call her da to ask for direction...david was scared of kirsten dad's..haha...we almost missed dundee again at d roundabout but finally we got d right way back to dundee...so reached home at half past 11...feeling hungry, tired..i want 2 sleep..but i think i better stay up till subuh then only i sleep, do my taraweeh, hv my dinner+supper+sahur together..online for a while..update my blog(which i m doin now) update my patient detail...wait for subuh n then i want to sleep till 2mrow zuhur..haha..stop here...happy ramadan to all...

most memorable day in surgery block

2006-09-15T09:38:00.000-07:00

today is my last day in ward 10 @ surgery 3 block...when i woke up in the morning my only aim is to get may assesmt form done by hook or by crook, i hv to search for my supervisor n get him sign my form..when i reached the ward this morning..it was quiet, nobody else except one jho..grand ward round is suppose to be tis morning but then the consultant only came in at 10 to 9...n he said we hv to finish ward round in 10 minutes coz i hv a meeting..after 10 minutes he dissapeared without finishing d ward round n he asked another consultant to continue whom is my supervisor,mr wood...but he is on call n he has to go to theatre for emergency surgery...however he still come n review 3-4 patients
before the theatre ppl bleep him..i asked him if i can watch him doing the surgery..n he said its ok, u can help me if u want to..we both went to see the patient..she is a 20 y/o lady presented with sudden onset RIF pain which is typical of appendicitis, well this is the 1st time i met a patient pointing exactly to mc burney's point in which the pain is what we called rebound tenderness...n interestingly, she is pregnant...
mr wood did the informed consent on his own as she was quite worried, she even asked him whether he has done this kind of op on pregnant lady like her before, since it will be an open appendicectomy instead of laparoscopic one...he mentioned to the lady that i'll be assisting him during the op..fuh..i am waiting for this opportunity since my 1st day, n only now i get it...very excited...
quickly go n change to green..then ask the nurse in charge to teach me how to scrub in...okla...but i ve to be very careful to maintain the 'sterility' . then help him to put on the green cloth n all...altho i do nothing besides pulling the retractor, holding the clip and cutting the vicryl but seriously i dun think it was an easy job...u hv to be strong n hv enuf energy to pull the retractor because the skin n fascia are very tight n even more in pregnant lady...incision was made a bit higher than mc burney's point to avoid injury to uterus, when 1st reached the peritoneum, i can see the enlarge uterus, then he took out the large bowel becos he cudnt find the appendix, it was obscured by the enlarge uterus..finally find the uterus..it was a bit inflamed, bld vessels were more prominent...wah..this is an unforgetable experience because before this i can only see from far, but this time i get a clearer view, can see inside the peritoneum particularly organ near RIF...can see every layers from skin to fascia, then muscle before reaching the inside of the abdomen...i wont forget this...
the operation was fine...then i got him to sign my assesmt form n now i'mdone...yeah..can go back...but then i thought maybe i should drop by the ward n say hi to hannah (jho) before i go back..but it turn out to be sumthing else...since hannah is only today, there r so many things to be done.. n mr wood wanted to continue d ward round...so i helped her during d round then filled in those discharge form, ogd request, blood transfusion thingy, then took some blood that were not done by phlebotomist..bcos she had to clerk few patient in surgical opd ...now i know how the real doctor works..it can be hectic man..esp when u r left alone...u hv to monitor 24 patients at 1 time whose consultants are different, hv to go here n there to request things...then the nurses, physio, pharmacist..all are looking for u to ask u this n that...basically u hv to know everything goin on..n i think the best way to approach this is dun stress...thought for today..

at night, i went to d mosque to help them wif d prep for doors open day programme..when i first arrived..wow, theres so many ppl, now only i know there r actually quite a number of muslim in dundee..make new frens..from algeria, abu dhabi, eqypt n brunei...that was great...actually i just came back from d mosque..so bit tired..i'm thinking of goin to sleep now but i remember that i've to do sumthing for my 4th yr project..i'm stuck now...pls help me...need to pass up my corec form, ethics form n wateva form...oh i dunno..i need to at least know sumthing about these forms before i go to perth..if not, i'll be stress out..opps..no stress...stop here...need to do sum work...

&^%#@@$%%horrible day !@#$%^&(?">

2006-09-13T12:29:00.000-07:00

suddenly i remember bout my blog...so i decided to write sumthing since i havent write for ...bout 5 months...why i suddenly think bout my blog?huhu...bcos i feel bad, sad n i cried just now..haha..so i need sumthing to write bout how i feel...n i havent got my diary yet here..might as well update my blog right...so many things goin on today..
after bout 2 months been in dundee..i'm now feeling homesick ..haha..sounds ridiculous? childish? whateva...people cant tell when i'm sad bcos i can still smile...u wudnt know.... n d other thing is one of d patient in my ward died last night. i din see him for d last time but one of d jho told me bout him... actually i already thought bout it d 1st time i met him in d ward but i just dun expect that to be...he was a nice gentleman...feel sorry for his family...u really wont expect him if u dun see him ..he was a post op, cholecystectomy patient..but after d op, his condition suddenly deteriorate..his crp n wcc went up, liver enzyme was haywire man, he developed chest infection, vomited few times...but he din complaint much...he got so many tubes inserted..from above n below, both sides of hand...so pity...i took his blood twice, did blood culture..but he never complaint.. he was such a nice patient.. he looks similar to my grandpa tho...the last time i saw him was yesterday morning during morning ward round..he developed haematoma on his abdomen, it was a large haematoma...n in the evening, he continued deteriorating n diagnosed to have acute pancreatitis..he then transferred to HDU...n today, they told me he's dead...i was shock... this is a memorable experience for me..altho i'm not d 1 treating him...but i wont forget this...
another story..there's 1 patient today, an old lady...i've seen her since the 1st day attached to this ward...the jho ask me to put venflon on her, but before i say anything..she already said, i dun want u to do it...woo!!...i dun mind, i mean she has the right but can she pls says that in a more polite way?i din take that personally..never take anything personally when dealing with ur patient (1 of my principle) i just want 2 know why she refused me to do the venflon bcos i never poke a needle on her even once...
there's so many things happened in the hosp today..dun wan 2 list all of them...at least i know i've learned sumthing during this block n i wont forget them...besides, i'm really thankful to spr n jho in my ward, they were really helpful, they taught us lots of thing...those that we will never learn during our lecture...

2006

2006-03-06T04:43:00.000-08:00

tis is my 1st blog for 2006...really bz huh...haha, no lah..just tat too lazy to type, besides i dun hv any idea wat to type about (cam tunggang langgang abes)...13 march is coming...haha..i'll be officially third yr student and 22 yr old soon...dah tue...uwaa...so, wats coming up? musculoskeletal, ready utk menghafal all the muscles...actvts coming up eg.msoc orientation, handling fiqh session + publicity, food fair, imu ball (all of us still preparing for tis one), ppim meeting (dunno yet whether we can join them or not)...
for the last one month, i was totally occupied by house md. and greys anatomy...wat's these 2 series actually about?erm...i'm promoting them now...as for me, i think all medical student should watch tis, or at least house md. why? try 1 episode n u'll know y...it will really suit u future doc...altho it maybe a bit 'unrealistic' but u actually revising ur notes...cysticercosis, cushing's, tumour, TTP n many more, medical ethics were also included, but for greys maybe a bit different lar... not really educated but u can enjoy all the morals it have, seriously if u hv time, go for it...u wont regret punye
alamak, tak tersambung le plak, leka sgt chatting, lain kali la continue..

end of 2005

2005-12-25T06:44:00.000-08:00

ok...wat im going to type now...almost forgotten my blog actually..huhu...ni pon sbb cuti...adela masa gak nak surf thet lama2...now, just finish my repro system..repro as for me, it looks easy but then die nye exam, mencabar abes...but it s interesting...altho not yet been for obgyn posting, still i hv da chance to go to mch clinic in nilai..not tat bad la there...follow the nurse for home visit, n for 1st time in my life, i palpate a 9 months pregnant lady abdomen tho i cant hear da baby s heart sound, nevermine la...using tat 'peanut' stet, its not tat easy la...besides, i learn lots of new things there...which u cant actually get in lecture hall...da best part in repro is the child devmt...haha...paeds is my mision, so of course la tats the best one...
next system is renal..hahaha...all da lecturers hv been warning bout tis..."renal is not going to be easy..start early, tis will be damn hard for u guys"...alamal..br ingat nak lepak jap before sem5 nih...tp im da only yg gatal sgt nak blk raya aji...i dunno y..but tats me..haha...just tat maybe tis is my last raya kot just in case nex yr i won be in msia...
sleepy la now...to be continued....

towards holiday..

2005-10-23T19:21:00.000-07:00

after 1 week rotation, today, i ll be going to hkkb, as usual..u hv to pack as tho u re going for 1 week but actually u ll only be there for 3-4 days...hv to grab food, pillow, blanket, laptop lagi...if not, u'll be loss in ur own world..haha...sounds crazy, but i love kkb, hope tis time i ll manage to see at least a postmortem, more delivery bcoz we re planning to stay over in the maternity ward..haha...n escape the afternoon session huh...no lah...i dun dare to do tat...hopefully our rotation in kkb during ramadan is not tat bad...huda, efa n shafaf told us tat there's also bazar ramadan but of course u hv to walk there, exercise da...the night we came back there'll be closing ceremony for ramadan actvt, khatam and many more..its not my duty anymore tis time, i'm heading to kkb guys...
wat's next? erm...holiday...going back to alor star the next day...seriously many things to do...nama pon nak raya...again, to my frens yg tak dapek nak blk cuti raya tuh...esp kat nadia...hehe...rasenye by the time ketupat n lemang n rendang sampai kat soton tuh, mesti da basi...haha...nanti mlm raya , call if ek...
after raya, others will be going back to bj but not me..gp posting at my home town, so plus one week holiday lagi...ice n zeehan said their clinic was interesting, yup..i agree...sum of the cases were just unexpected...haha...n funny...
have to shut down da...kena blk packing barang...

alhamdullillah

2005-10-14T20:36:00.000-07:00

da lame tak tulih kat blog nih...slalu tak berkesempatan tp now segalanya da berakhir..-iuh..blom lagila..baru jer abes endo...exam da lepas, lega la sket, imu cup da abes, art comp pon da lps...ramadan ni buat buletin msoc, pastuh tolong2 kutip derma, buat amal jariah n ibadat sket...lpsnih rotation, lama gak cuti, lebey sbulan tuh campur cuti raya...tp bukan cuti semata ar, kena gi klinik, hosp, lab, csu, n the most boring one, cm n bs...lps nih ader lagi program ramadan yg blom settle, ade ke patut diorg sruh masuk quiz...kenala study agama lps nih...hihi...tp bgs gak bole mantapkan ilmu2 akhirat nih...utk busana lagi, nak bukak posa ramai2, last week nye bulletin tak print lagi...arghh...byk rupenye keje...apepun, yg penting jgn tangguh keje, kalo tak mmg sampai bile pon tak siap...ar..ni tgh musim pakai kaler lens, kalo tgk mata sorg2...hehe, kalakar pon ader, mcm2 kaler...nasib takde yg mcm cataract..

Kelebihan sujud

2005-09-21T02:08:00.000-07:00

Sujud lega sistem pernafasan. MUNGKIN ramai di kalangan umat Islam tidak sedar mengenai pelbagai hikmah yang tersembunyi ketika sujud. Pada hal, kita perlu sedar bahawa tiada suatu pun ciptaan dan suruhan Allah s.w.t. yang sia-sia, malahan setiap ciptaan itu mempunyai kelebihan yang selalunya tidak terjangkau akal manusia.
Manusia melakukan sujud dalam dua bentuk, iaitu sujud fizikal seperti ketika bersolat dan sujud spiritual berbentuk ketaatan kepada perintah Allah s.w.t. dan menjauhi larangannya. Ulama mengatakan sujud ketika solat adalah waktu manusia paling hampir dengan Allah s.w.t. dan mereka menggalakkan kita bersujud lebih lama.
Antara hikmah lain sujud adalah melegakan sistem pernafasan dan mengembalikan kedudukan organ ke tempat asalnya. Bernafas ketika sujud pula boleh:
- membetulkan kedudukan buah pinggang yang terkeluar sedikit dari tempat asalnya.
- membetulkan pundi peranakan yang jatuh.
- melegakan sakit hernia. (burut)
- mengurangkan sakit senggugut ketika haid.
- melegakan paru-paru daripada ketegangan.
- mengurangkan kesakitan bagi pesakit apendiks atau limpa.
- kedudukan sujud adalah paling baik untuk berehat dan mengimbangkan lingkungan bahagian belakang tubuh.
- meringankan bahagian pelvis.
- memberi dorongan supaya mudah tidur.
- menggerakkan otot bahu, dada, leher, perut serta punggung ketika akan sujud dan bangun daripada sujud.
- pergerakan otot itu menjadikan ototnya lebih kuat dan elastik, secara automatic memastikan kelicinan perjalanan darah yang baik.
- bagi wanita, pergerakan otot itu menjadikan buah dadanya lebih baik, mudah berfungsi untuk menyusukan bayi dan terhindar daripada sakit buah dada.
- mengurangkan kegemukan.
- pergerakan bahagian otot memudahkan wanita bersalin, organ peranakan mudah kembali ke ! tempat asal serta terhindar daripada sakit gelombang perut (convulsions).
- organ terpenting iaitu otak manusia menerima banyak bekalan darah dan oksigen.
- mengelakkan pendarahan otak jika tiba-tiba menerima pengepaman darah ke otak secara kuat dan mengejut serta terhindar penyakit salur darah dan sebagainya.
Dari segi psikologi pula, sujud membuatkan kita merasa rendah diri di hadapan Yang Maha Pencipta sekali gus mengikis sifat sombong, riak, takbur dan sebagainya.
Dari segi perubatan, kesan sujud yang lama akan menambahkan kekuatan aliran darah ke otak yang boleh mengelakkan pening kepala danmigrain, menyegarkan otak serta menajamkan akal fikiran sekali gus menguatkan mentaliti seseorang.
Menurut kajian, terdapat beberapa urat saraf di dalam otak manusia yang tidak dimasuki darah sedangkan setiap inci otak manusia memerlukan darah yang cukup untuk berfungsi secara normal dan sempurna.

amalan malam nisfu syaaban

2005-09-16T08:49:00.000-07:00

1. apabila selesai solat Maghrib, hendaklah dibaca Yaasin dgn diniatkan mohon panjangkan umurnya dalam mentaati Allah, kemudian dibacakan doanya. Kemudian dibacakan pula Yaasin dgn diniatkan diluaskan Allah rezeki yang halal dan diberkatiNya, kemudian dibacakan doanya. Kemudian dibacakan pula Yaasin dgn diniatkan dimatikan dalam iman (Husnulkhotimah), kemudian dibacakan doanya.

2. perbanyakkan istighfar dan taubat dari segala dosa-dosa besar dan kecil, dan meminta diampunkan Allah dosa-dosa ibubapa dan keluarga kita

3. Mohon keampunan dua ibu bapa
(Ya Tuhanku, ampunilah aku dan dua ibubapaku dan rahmatilah keduanya sepertimana mereka mendidik aku di waktu kecil)

4. mohon keampunan dan taubat diri
(Aku Mohon keampunan Allah dan aku bertaubat kepadaNya)

5. membaca
(Tiada Tuhan melainkan Allah dan tiada kami sembah melainkan akan diaNya, dgn cara ikhlas kepadaNya, lagi tetap teguh di atas tauhid walaupun dibenci oleh orang kafir)

6. membaca Al-Quran

7. membaca tasbih-Subhanarabial a3la (100x), Subhanallahi wabihamdihi
subhanallahilla’zim (100x)

8. membaca selawat atas Nabi

9. membaca zikrullah – Allahu akbar

10. solat2 sunat –sunat isyraq, sunat dhuha, sunat mengiringi Fardhu, sunat awwabin, sunat tahajjud, sunat tasbih, sunat witir, sunat hajat

Rebutlah amalan sebanyak-banyak yang boleh. Semoga kita semua mendapat keredhaan Allah..Amin..

Sem 4 is coming…

2005-09-14T06:18:00.000-07:00

Only 4 days left…I’ll be formally known as sem4 student..hahaha..one more honeymoon semester I guess…endocrine is next…very lazy la…cop…elective report?finish? opps…not yet…ala..da nak siap da…sempatnyer..lmbt lg nak anta…erm..imu cup is coming soon, well..actually it’s already started…but athletics maybe on the 3rd of Oct…sempat lagi nak practis…tp cam kalah lg jer tis time =P naik sem nih, ader EPT...fuh..english test le plak..da lame sgt tak blaja language nih…cam hancur jer…hopefully okla..n then ader health science debate 19-21 nih…ingat nak pegi tgk sbb last time I dun have the chance nak tgk…another thing that I should be prepared for tis sem is the new dress code…do u comply? (sounds familiar huh!)…well, u can find tis poster everywhere in imu…no more jeans, no more slippers, wear id all the time, guys-tie pls…bla..bla..beware, the lecturer will be strict tis time…hmm…

Triple I symposium – IIUM Kuantan

2005-08-31T06:17:00.000-07:00

5 of us (rima, shafaf, zeehan, raudah, plus me of course), we went to kuantan for tis symposium…Securing the Lineage was the theme for tis symposium. There were many talks, one forum and few group work…overall it was a good symposium to attend as I learned a lot from it. We hope that we will be able to distribute the knowledge we gain from that activity to our frens esp imu students…

at last

2005-08-30T17:13:00.000-07:00

my 1st own blog...siap jugak blog nih..wpon lama benar nak buat...

continued....

2005-08-20T06:16:00.000-07:00

Antara cerita2 pengalaman tsunami…

Dina-masa tuh tgh gotong royong di skolah, lepas tuh, ader org jerit2 air laut dah kering, semua org pon kuar dr skolah nak tgk, tp tibe2 air naik tinggi sgt,dina dgn kwn pon lari, lari kuat2 masuk masjid, ramai sgt org kat masjid waktu tuh, mase tuh baju semua da koyak2, teringat mamak di rumah,bila da abes banjir, dina blk umah, cari bapak, jumpa dgn abang, abang bwk jumpa bapak, tp sampai skarang tak jumpa mamak, tak tahulah mamak di mana…

Makcik di suak timah-masa banjir tuh, air tinggi bangat, lebey tinggi dr pokok kelapa, dlm air tuh, semua ada, manusia, kerbau, anjing, pokok, zink, semualah..anak aku dgn suami waktu tuh, tah di mana pon enggak tahu, masa dlm air tuh, ade satu bende berpusing-pusing keliling aku, ingtkn ape, bila aku capai,Ya Tuhan, anak aku!..tuh ar, anak yg 2 taun tuh(mase tuh anaknya tgh main kat luar) die dah keras tp masih bernafas, aku angkat, pegang dia kuat2, dlm fikiran masa tuh, apa da jddgn suami aku?mase tuh hanya berdoa pd Tuhan mintak diselamatkan. Alhamdullillah, arus bwk kami ke stadium sana, ramai yg slamat di sana kerna di situ tinggi tempatnya…syukur pada Allah, anakku masih hidup sampai hari ini…

Ade jugak yg bgtau,ombak laut dtg dr 3 arah, kemudiannya bercantum di tgh2 manjadikan arus yg sgt deras, tp bila sampai di masjid, ombak laut seolah-olah terbelah, masjid tidak terusik sedikit pon,…Subhanallah…

Lagi satu cite menarik…cite psl 2 org yg duduk di atas ular kerna diorg sangka itu adalah pokok kayu, yg akhirnya bwk diorg ke tpt yg tinggi dan slamat…MasyaAllah….

“MISI PELAJAR MENDEKATI ACEH”

2005-08-16T06:14:00.000-07:00

On Saturday, 6th August 2005, I ‘ve joined a trip to Aceh. There were 12 of us, 10 medical students (zue, raudah, usop, shuib, muhaimin, acab, johan, israq, zuhdi and me) including a doctor and israq’s mum. We departured from KLIA at 8 pm and arrived an hour later. From Medan, we travelled to Aceh by van.

The journey took about 17 hours before we finally reached Meulaboh. The girls (zue, raudah, makcik and me) were then sent to a female orphanage. The orphans were very happy to meet us. We spent time with them for about 2 days; we talk together, help them with their homework’s, help them to iron their uniforms, prepare them before going to school. They were very friendly as if they already knew us for a long time. It was a sweet memory. I hope that I’ll be able to see them again one day.

From Meulaboh, we moved to a village nearby, Suak Timah and Cok Darat, where we set up our mobile clinic there. It was a valuable experience to join such clinic as I have much opportunity to meet different kinds of people (some of them dun even understand what u re talking) and variety of illnesses. I have the chance to clerk the patient, take bp, examine their eye and ear (which I initially dun remember how to use that thing although I’ve been taught once) and prescribed their medications (hopefully I gave them the right tablets =) Besides, I also have the chance to meet the villagers there where we prayed together and have ‘tazkirah’. The thing that I won’t forget for my entire life is the condition where we stayed; there wasn’t a proper toilet when we first arrived! Another thing is that when we took a boat to get to another village (Lhok Bubon). I was quite frustrated when we have to go back to the jetty again and took our van instead as our boat cannot land there. However, this is really a precious experience I’ve ever had…hope to see u again aceh…

What makes a good doctor?

2005-08-07T05:02:00.000-07:00

How do u define good? The Oxford Dictionary surprisingly devotes a full page on this word. Thus it means; inter-alia: (a) having the right qualities (dedication, knowledge etc); (b) commendable; (c) morally excellent, virtuous; (d) kind, benevolent; (e) agreeable; (f) reliable; (g) amiable; (h) soundness of judgment, and (i) practical wisdom

A good doctor is sincere, dedicated and courteous. He is able to complement his medical knowledge and clinical judgement with humanistic qualities of integrity, respect and compassion. He sees his patients as fellow human beings and not as a ‘case’ with an illness. A good doctor is one who not only demonstrates professional competence, but also one who manifests personal qualities of patience, maturity and confidence. He listens attentively to his patients’ complaints and tries to answer all their questions to the best of his knowledge. With his older patients, he does not attribute their medical problems to old age and equate aging with mental and physical decline. He is sensitive to his patients’ special needs, particularly their emotional needs and general well-being. He avoids robotic prescription of drugs but rather, helps his patients identify the underlying causes of their problems. His patients are comfortable about discussing even their sexual problems with him. Last but not least, he treasures his relationship with his patients based upon mutual respect and open communication.

Exam=finish…Holiday=coming

2005-08-01T06:10:00.000-07:00

Erm…what’s my plan for tis holiday?...nothing actually..just rest..rest and rest…most probably our plan to travel n ‘jln2 cari mkn’ will be cancelled. Still dun have any idea wat to do for my elective..whatever!..there’s 2 months to go..rest first…I’ve already struggle for my final and now it’s time to enjoy…suggestions for elective- baking, golf, continue with jln2 cari mkn, wah…buhsannyer..i’m looking forward to go to swak…alih2…rima ajak gi aceh plak…I thought she was joking…but she wasn’t…it was true..but the thing is that will my parents allow me? We dun even know who is organizing, who else will be going…bla..bla..but Alhamdullillah..i dun know why, but they allow me to go as they knew that raudah and rima will go as well…huh…so easy..just take tis trip as my elective-settle..nothing more to think…